love triangle - t.h & s.m

chapter four

How he look at his phone, he sees you calling and he just turns the phone around and ignores your call...

You can't even express the feelings you feel right now. How can your life be turned upside down in just a matter of days? What had you done so wrong that you had started fighting with your best friend and he was the one who asked you to call him. And now that you did, he didn't answer you. Feeling lost and betrayed more than ever, you just wanted to run. Run far far away from this, your life, and all of your problems.

Eventually, you turned around, not able to watch him and her anymore. You wanted him to be happy, you really did, but you weren't ready to lose him. He used to tell you everything, or so you thought he did. Maybe he didn't tell you everything, maybe he lied to you all the time. How could you trust him after this?

Not thinking about what you were doing, you found yourself walking away, walking away from Shawn. You feel the lump in the back of your throat, and the burning feeling in your eyes as they started to water. You had never felt this alone before, you didn't get why he wanted you to call him if he really didn't even want to talk to you. You weren't sure how long you had been walking before you look around you and realize you don't even know where you are. Turning around a couple of times, you tried to recognize where you were, but you couldn't.

"Fuck." you mumble as you wipe the stray tear away from your cheek. Turning around again, you look back to the direction you came from. Taking out your phone, you see you had missed calls from Tom and a couple of text too.

Tom: Hey where are you?

Tom: Was it such a bad date that you just leave without saying anything?

Tom: Okay...

Tom: Could you at least answer me?

Tom: I take that as a no then...

Tom: I'm sorry if i did something wrong

You didn't know if you should answer him. Maybe you could just call him when you make it back to your dorm and after taking a long hot shower. Letting out a groan, you open up the map app to see how far from home you actually were. Turns out, you had walked over an hour to the place where you were. So, you starting your long walk back home.

You couldn't help feeling bad for leaving Tom like that, but you hadn't even thought much about how you had left Tom without saying a word as to where you were or why you left. That had to be the worst beginning and end of a date ever. You hated yourself for leaving Tom like that, he had been so nice to you. He had been there for you, and you treated him like absolute shit.

The walk back to your dorm felt like the longest walk you had ever taken. Shawn was no longer on your mind, now all you were thinking about was Tom. You were an asshole, and you didn't even know how to apologize to him. What would you tell him? 'Oh yeah, I tried to call Shawn, but then I saw him with that girl Hailey and ran away. Sorry.' Absolutely not, no, you couldn't do that. How could you explain that to him without looking like a jealous best friend? But were you jealous of Hailey? Why would you be, right? He was just your best friend, and you definitely didn't have feelings for him... he was just your best friend, that is all. You liked Tom, not Shawn, Tom.

A groan left your lips, as you saw your dorm building getting closer and closer to you. Oh, how badly you needed a hot shower, maybe something a little stronger to drink, and a good night of sleep. You slow down your pace as you approach the building, spotting two people next to the door. As you got closer, you start to recognize them. Brown curls you had played with, brown eyes you could drown in, and a beautiful girl who you knew very well. And then you see them kiss. If there was a God, he must really fucking hate you. You stop for a minute before quickly walking past them into the building praying to that God that seemed to hate you, that they didn't see you walk past them.