Somebody That I Used Know

✨Chapter.33✨

So eventually the truth came out and now I feel a lot more better than what I used to feel, I just didn't want anymore stress and anxiety, it was all getting me down and the news had to be broken anyway, I couldn't leave it forever.
Krystal: "You finally told him"
Me: "Yeah"
Krystal: "So it took you 5 calendar years to tell him"
Me: "Well at least I said it now, it's done"
Krystal: "At least you done the right thing"
Me: "Yeah I'm glad I did too"
So Christian retired and spent more time with his Daughters, My Sister was no longer a referee in TNA instead she's a Knockout wrestler and I'm figuring out what's next on my agenda.
I still feel like crap for some reason and I don't know what it is, I know it took me so long but I really don't know why I feel like this, I still feel apart of me still loves him but I don't know if he loves me back.
I'll never know if I don't say something sooner, it's like if I hadn't of said something the secret would've always been kept a secret but I'm a little nervous, I need to wait for things to calm down before I can move any further in life.
I have waited such a long time and I can't give up now, it's 5 years too long and he finally got the truth, maybe I should just tell him how I feel too along with it.
Maybe just maybe he will understand me like he always has done, that's what I miss about us, the trust and honesty part.
I can't say I'm glad that he got a divorced because I would never wish that on anyone and it's a sad thing for a person to go through.
My sister has been through it and now Christian has gone through it and I feel bad because I'm the only person who hasn't been through that really terrible time period.
I only had major break ups but that's not as bad as a divorce, when your married it means you've been close to that person before and I would hate for that to happen to me, I don't think I could ever hack it at all.