Somebody That I Used Know

👶🏼Chapter.23👶🏼

Months after it was well into 2011 and I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl called Brittany AnnMarie, she was born 11AM on June 5th.
I'm still hoping that I don't cross paths with Christian, it will look really awkward to him, he'll probably feel stupid thinking she's moved on already when really I hadn't I always loved him.
Christian just didn't love me that way for long and I don't know why but it is too late for answers but if I get the opportunity I will get them sooner but honestly I don't care for now, Brittany is my priority at this time and forever.
I do get freaked out when I see blonde guys crossing the streets but I know for a well known fact that Christian is travelling the world and I am only here in New Orlands.
I hear Edge's words in my head and he's right I can't keep it a secret forever but if Christian finds me and finds out Brittany is his then I expect awnsers as to why he left me, I feel like he left me for no reason.
Sometimes I did cry about it but other times I don't other times I move on and just take care of Brittany and yes I can do it myself, I don't need his help at all and I'm too afraid of ruining his marriage anyway I know the right thing to do would've been to tell him but I can't put Brittany in that situation it's not fair on her at all.
I feel like I have let myself down and let Brittany down too for that matter, I feel like a useless Mother already but it was only her earliest days back then.
I just didn't know what to do, I can't face him again, I just can't face him again, there's too much heartbreak going on in my family which will last me a life time.
My house which was destroyed on me by the tornado back in 2007 is only just getting back to the way it was.
Myself and Taryn could've died there and then but luckily we are still here and lucky I have a focus to help me get my mind off it I really needed that distraction in my life at that time.