Prettymuch Gay

Chapter 39

Zion Kuwonu

"Edwin! Come on I know your home!" I say while I knock slightly aggressive on his door. It was like 12 at night and I bet I looked like a crazy person. I waited for a bit before I saw a light turn on inside. I stepped back away from the door and waited for someone to open it.

"Zion?" A half awake Edwin says opening the door.

I just rushed over and hugged him so hard. Today was not it for me and I just needed the only person I care about with me. "What's wrong?" He asks hugging me a little back. I let go of him and walk inside the house. I sit down on the couch and take a deep sigh.
Edwin sits down next to me, putting his hand on my knee. "it isn't mine...." I say, my voice cracking a little through out my sentence.

"What's not yours?" He asks turning his whole attention to me.

"The baby! Jenna's baby! She lied! It's not mine!" I say slightly raising my voice. I look at Edwin who looked genuinely shocked by this news. "Oh.... um-"

"I know! This should be good news right! A huge relief but..."

"I get it Zion! You got attached to the idea! You started caring with your heart and I can see why you can be upset" Eddie says taking my hand in his.

Another example of how Edwin Joel Honoret is the only person that gets me. He leaned his head on my shoulder and kissed my neck. "I....I am sorry... Edwin I really am! I know that I haven't been the best boyfriend! But I promise! I will make up all the lost time" I says looking at him dead in the eyes.

He put what looked like a forced smile on his face. Isn't he....I don't know, happy that I'm gunna try and fix this?

"Zion..... We need to talk...." he says looking down at the ground.

"You know I love you Z" he says looking up.

"Yea! I mean why else's would you still be with me" I giggle out.

Edwin looked really nervous, it was kind of alarming to me. I got a little serious, squeezing his hand with mine. "That's the thing Z..... I don't think I can be with you anymore..." The hell did he just say....

"I just feel like I will always be your number one until some one better comes along..."

"Edwin! What the hell! No! You know that's not true!"

"I was always taught 50/50 in relationships! But for the past few months it's been more like 80/20!"

"It's not like that anymore! It's just me and you!" He isn't breaking up with me right now. He can't! Everything was just about to go back to normal. "I'm just tired of being treated like a fuckin gold digger!" He says

"When have I ever-"

"What! all the jewels and clothes you threw my way! You think I didn't know you were just trying to keep me occupied!" He shouted standing up.

"Keep your damn money Zion! I got my own!"

"I know that Edwin! Where- why now!" I ask looking at him. His face drops from angry to sadness. He sits back down and puts his face in his hands. I sit down next to him and do my best comfort him. "I kissed Austin...." I'm sorry did I hear this correctly?

"What...?" I say softly.

He leans up and takes a deep breath. He looks at me straight in my eyes and says "I kissed Austin.."

It felt like I have just been shot and the bullet when straight through my heart. "And So What! That's what we doin now! I have never been unfaithful Edwin! And you out here throwing all the things I feel guilty about in my face so you make this feel like my fault!" I shout at him.