Prettymuch Gay

Chapter 38

Brandon Arreaga

"Your so..... beautiful"

"Stop saying that Brandon!" Nick said getting up from the side of the pool and walking toward the sun chairs. "it's true! What I can't compliment you now!" I say following him. He has been at my house almost everyday since his little fight with Edwin.

I'm not gunna lie, this is probably the most attention I have ever got from him. I loved it. I mean yea we would hang out But Nick was so involved with the school and did so much community work. He was always running around and cutting our dates short because of his responsibilities.

"Come on let's go inside!" Nick said taking my hand and guiding me into the house. "Why!?" I ask trying to stop him. It was nice and sunny and we barely swam. "We gunna smash" he says guiding me to the door that lead directly to my room from the backyard. "All we do is fuck!" I loved fucking and normal I would have a problem with this but....

We boyfriends now, I want something more than just sex. I want that good relationship type love and stuff. "Is that a problem?" Nick says raising his eyebrows at me. "It's just.... I just think your using me at this point" I said while taking a deep breath.

Nick stops trying to drag me to my room and looks at me. "What do you mean?" He ask looking at the saddest in my eyes.

"All we ever do is fuck! And if we didn't make it official and just stayed fuck buddies that would be fine! But you said that you wanted to be my boyfriend! But all I feel like I am too you is a giant meat stick!" He looks at me like he kinda got hurt from my words.

"That's not!- no it's just- I just!" He stumbled  across his words as he twitched around. I just wanted some answers from him. I don't like wasting my time and it would really suck if I was on Nick.

He takes a deep breath before speaking clearly.

"I know that I have been mistreating you B.....Taking you for granted it's just! I don't know how to have a boyfriend..... Just know that I like you.... A lot and I appreciate you and can't get through half the things in my life without you....." He puts his hands on my cheeks and looks at me in the eyes. I want to tell him I love him right now! I just know he most likely won't say it back. Let's face it, Nicks life moves so fast that I will only be a minor chapter in it. He cares about me now but what happens when he goes off to college.

He will go to the best college in the state or maybe even one out of state I don't know! But I'm here and I don't even need college. I get a company passed down to me and he will probably be president or some shit. I know we aren't forever but.... It's sometimes nice to think so.

"Look I know we are no Edwin and Zion but... Lemme take you out somewhere! a date like a Real one!" I say wrapping my arms around his waist. "And what exactly would we do on this date!" He asks smiling at me as he wraps his arms around my neck.

"Whatever the hell I have planned"

"Can we go to the mall" He asks me

"For a date? that's really what you want to do"

"Hell yea! You buying clothes for me is probably a dream come true" This boy thinking I will buy anything for him. Well I mean...He right, I will buy anything for the boy I love.

Even Though He don't love me back....

Edwin Honoret

"So your not coming......."

"I'm sorry baby! It's the first ultrasound and I kinda want to be there" Zion said to me.

I had this whole thing prepared for me and him. Spent my own damn money on his favorite snacks so we can shmack out in my bed. He bails on me.....