I didn't sleep at all last night, it was weird. Austin left early in the morning, I made sure to fake sleep so we didn't speak. What did I do!? It wasn't good! Like yea it felt good physically, but mentally I was not in it like I thought I would be. Oh my god!! How can I face him after this and his GIRL!! Oh shit I forgot he had a girl. What did I just do!! Not only did I Ruin our friendship but also am a side chick.
Man I really dug myself a DEEP ass hole. I finally get up out of my bed and walk down stairs. "Aye papi your phone came today" My mother said pointing to the box on the table. FINALLY! I have been off of social media for a quick minute now and I was ready for my new phone.
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I had the gold one before so I thought I would get the red one this time. I didn't want the X or the Xr because I prefer a button on my screen. I take it out of the box and turn it on. It was so satisfying, I loved getting new phones. I log into everything and download snapchat and instagram. I look and seee that I had a few hundred messages from Zion.
"Hey Baby!!"
"I'm sorry I was stupid"
"I didn't mean what I said"
"I never wanted to break up with you!!"
"Please answer me!!"
"EDWIN!!"
"Mi amor"
"Please don't ignore me like this!!"
"I take everything back from what I said that day"
"I'm a fucking idiot! Just please talk to me for a minute"
"Babe com one I'm begging you just open my MESSAGES"
"Please ANSWER WHEN I CALL!!"
"TALK TO ME EDDIE!!!"
Oh my god! He still wants me!! I mean yea I was kind of confused on what happened that day but.... I'm just really glade he didn't mean it. And I really regret throwing my phone and breaking it.
I realized that all my contact names were gone and there were just number. Is it bad that I don't know Zion's number!? I remember he sent it to me in the chat once on Snapchat. I need to go find it NOW!
Zion Kuwonu
It's been a whole ass week and Edwin hasn't talk to me. Fuck I hate being all drunk!!! I wish I just shut the fuck up and walked with them. Oh god man! I feel like a loser and.... well that's it I feel like a loser. I just want my Edwin back in my arms. I have texted, called and nothing. He hasn't even opened my messages on anything! I really fucked up didn't I.
He's probably out there with someone else that didn't yell at him. That didn't break up with him in the worst way ever. Man! I blame JOEL and the mariachi. Simple. I don't even think it mattered at this point. I just wanted him here in my arms, clothings optional. Man I just feel like-
