Ricci Rivero, MD

17

Today is the day.

I was contemplating about this, I'm not yet ready to see where this is heading to.

Is it me failing or passing the board exams?

I was fucking nervous. Hindi ko nga alam kung kaya ko ba makita yung results.

If Rivero was just here... Ah fuck, whatever.

I felt like I was dying inside.

Its been 2 years since everything ended between Rivero and I. I got the closure I needed. He left because his sister got depressed. But why would he do that? I know blood is thicker than water but for 6 years he should know I was willing to put up with everything as long as it's with him. But then he admitted, he fell out of love, too.

Well life happened and all you have to do is just move-on.

I know the results are already coming out but hindi ko pa din kaya makita. I closed my eyes trying to calm myself. Kung sana nandito si Rivero, he'll hold my hand and say nice things to make me calm pero wala na eh. Tapos na.

Natapos yung minsang naging akin siya.

My phone kept vibrating pero hindi ko ito magawang tignan. I just want to pass kahit yun lang sana.

Minutes passed, this is now or never. You can do this, Akilia.

I looked at my phone.

I received a lot of "Congratulations." Agad ako napatingin sa results.

MEDICAL LICENSURE EXAMS
TOP 10

1. Ricci Paolo U. Rivero, MD - IM
2. Alliah Paige U. Rivero, MD - IM
3. Akilia Syn O. Larazabal, MD - DU
4. Donato Antonio L. Pangilinan, MD - DU
5. Tony J. Lazardo, MD - IM
6. Farina C. Kweste, MD - IM
7. Eunice S. Sarmiento, MD - IM
8. Francine K. Del Mundo, MD - DU
9. Jose Anton A. Salazar, MD - DU
10. Asher Jus Y. Ungson, MD - DU

IM - Institute of Medicine
DU - Doctors' University

Ricci Rivero is top 1. Fucking top 1. I just want to run and hug him so tight.

I'm so proud of you, Rivero. Always will.

Alliah's top 2 and I'm sure my kuya's proud of his girl. It's been 2 years since they are dating. Buti pa sila going strong, ano?

Donny:

Congrats, Dr. Akilia Larazabal.

Me:

Congrats, Dr. Donato Antonio Pangilinan. Let's celebrate?

Donny:

Yes. Tonight, 9pm. Walwalan na.

Me:

Gago hahaha osige

Reminiscing the past, it was definitely a good one. Siguro tama lang naman yung ginawa ko eh. We grew individually. Masarap sana kong we grew together pero knowing that my decision led us to a better life, I'm happy that I did something good out of it.

Sana nga lang makahanap ako ng ibang Ricci Paolo Uy Rivero.

Sana lang.

Night time came and I just prep my self for the celebration. I wore a red dress na above my knees. My make up's simple lang yung red lipstick lang yung nagdala eh.

I had dinner with my family. I couldn't be more thankful seeing my family being proud of me. They're always there for me lalo na nung I transferred from another school. They were sad kasi kami lahat sana gusto nila na gra-graduate sa IM but they prioritized my feelings first rather than graduating in the same school.

I'm just happy right now. Genuinely happy.

Dinner just finished at sakto naman na nag text si Donny sakin saying he'll pick me up in 5 minutes. This guy helped me through those years where I feel like I don't have a purpose anymore. Yung sobrang wala na talaga ako, he was there guiding me.

Kung hindi dahil sa kanya, wala ako dito ngayon even though his face reminds me so much of Rivero or maybe his lips lang. Well the point is pwede sana maging kami pero sometimes the feeling of just being friends and not complicate what we have is much more than risking it for a relationship.  

I beso-ed him the moment na nakita ko siya.

"Hey, just wanna remind you that some IM med students are there in Complex right now." This is a club. I just can't keep running away from him. I have to face him anytime soon and if it is now, then I'm good.

Nginitian ko si Donny.

"Thank you for giving me hope. Thank you for existing." Sabi ko out of the blue. I was never showy with what I feel and I feel like I needed to say this to him.

"Wow. That's the first time I heard you saying that and you actually mean it." I chuckled. True. Sometimes kasi nag jo-joke lang ako.

We arrived at the spot.

I froze when I saw his car. 

He's here. I wonder how he is though. 

The place is big. I don't think I'll see him. Those are the words i uttered before I entered the place at agad akong nagsisi why I said that.

Our gaze met at one point.

He smiled.

"Akilia. Glad to see you. Congrats, Dr. Larazabal." Fuck, it's so good to hear him saying that.

"Congrats din. I'm so proud of you." I smiled at him.

Sana pwede pa maging kami ulit ..

Sana pwede pa ..

"Congrats, Dr. Rivero, my love." I saw how Rivero's eyes lit when he saw her. He carried her while she's hugging him.

"Thank you, love." malambing na boses nyang sabi.

Wala na pala...

Ang tanga ko. 

Walang wala na..