my best friend: a tyrus fanfiction

chapter 4

I was jolted awake by my blaring alarm. I rolled out bed realizing it was Friday. I was happy but also sad that I would have to wait all weekend to see Cyrus. The ride to school was peaceful. Amber sat in the passenger seat while I drove. Ever since I got my license Amber and I alternated who drove and today was my day. We listened to the morning talk show. It was that one where they call people who went on a date and then got blown off.

"So, Kate," I listened to the radio personality, "Why didn't you call Josh back after the first date? It seems like it went well did it not?"

"Oh Josh," she didn't seem upset like most people who heard their "ex's" name. She continued, "Yea, he was nice. The thing is though... I don't like guys. I um- I'm actually lesbian and I only went on the date to make my parents happy. They don't love the idea of me liking girls, but it's all good"

Her words almost hurt but for some reason, I wanted to be proud of this girl for being confident enough to say that on the radio. Then I felt sad for her because I realized she might not have wanted the world to know that but now they did.

"Poor girl," Amber said sympathetically. Her sudden words almost made me jump since most of the ride so far had been silent. I looked over at my sister for only a second before looking back at the road.

"You do the same thing, Amb," I said meekly.

"I know," she said admittingly, "but I don't like the idea that other people have to go through that too."

I felt that almost too much, "I'm sorry."

"No. I don't even have the courage to tell them and that's why I go on dates with guys once and a while. I want them to think I'm "normal". My worst fear is being rejected, I guess. I just don't want them to not love me. You know?"

I held onto the wheel with one hand and took Ambers in my free hand. I squeezed her hand and didn't let go until we got to school. She smiled at me before getting out of the car and walking up towards the school.

When I got to gym class 4th period the teachers decided we wouldn't have to have an actual gym class since the ceiling had been leaking and the floor was soaked. I sat next to Emily on the bench. We were talking about Iris. Iris had been best friends with Emily forever and I was friends with her too. Iris had come out to both of us as bi last year.

"I just don't understand. My mom is like... my best friend if I were her I would totally tell my mom because I know she wouldn't care," Emily was talking about the fact that Iris didn't want to tell her mom that she was bi. I didn't know what to say. I have no idea who I like. I don't want to make that obvious right now. Something inside of me wanted me to tell her but then something else told me I couldn't say anything. Deep down I knew who I liked but I didn't want to admit it to myself, at least not yet.

"I guess she just doesn't have the best relationship with her mom. Like I wouldn't tell my mom right away either. I mean you know why parents," I admitted.

"Yea I mean I guess if it was my whole life it would be hard but if I just realized that I like girls today I would definitely tell her," suddenly I was questioning myself all over again. This hadn't been my whole life. I just started to feel these things this year. Suddenly I knew I no longer liked Emily. I don't think I like Cyrus though, I just admire his personality.

"I guess," I added, hating myself in a way for that answer. I never wanted to stop talking to Emily more than I did at that moment. The bell rung stopping her from saying anything else that could make me climb deeper into my head. I couldn't wait to get home. But at home, I'll still be in my head. I guess I'll go to the game tonight with Reed and Lester.

I'm so sorry this is painfully short! I was working on a further chapter and ran out of ideas for this chapter! Ah, I'm sorry! I hate short chapters!