The worst part of being pregnant is waking up too early and feeling sick all of a sudden. And here I am, mouth covered by my hand and running my way to the bathroom to vomit loads of gastric juices. I feel empty and lifeless after depositing gastric juices in the toilet bowl.
I stood up and looked at myself in the huge mirror, checking if I still look as beautiful as ever. I glared at myself in horror as soon as I realized that I looked miserable. And then it hit me, I look ugly--- not because of the pregnancy, but because of the broken heart I am trying to mend. I miss him, badly!
I scowled at my own reflection, "Kim, just forget about him for the mean time. You are pregnant! You need to be healthy and strong, both physical and emotional."
I washed my face and went back to my bed. I really need a goodnight sleep. I haven't been sleeping well for the past months. I closed my eyes and succumb to the endless darkness of my slumber.
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"Why are you staring at me?" I asked furiously.
His brown eyes, which reminds me of him, glittered with mischief. "Wala lang." then he grinned as if he had cracked a joke to himself.
Inirapan ko siya tapos tumalikod ako. Ugh. The nerve of this guy! Parang last week lang sinabi niya na gusto niya akong protektahan tapos ngayon iniinis na niya ako.
Narinig ko ang pagtawa niya tapos naramdaman ko na hinawakan niya ako sa balikat. He caressed my back and whispered, "Wag ka nang magtampo, Kim." then he kissed my right cheek. I flushed.
Napaharap ako sa kanya, "Why you?! Kiss stealer!" pibirong sabi ko sa kanya.
He helped me get up on my feet and we went to his office. He sat on his swivel chair and motioned me to sit on the couch, and so I did.
May check-up ako kaya ako nandito sa hospital. Hinatid na ako ni Bryle dahil sa takot na may mangyaring masama sa akin tapos dumiretso na siya sa work niya. So, that leaves me to this very very fine man, Vash Ybanez.
I grinned stupidly at myself as I recall the day that he admitted he likes me, oh wait, he said he loves me! And I feel so-- overwhelmed! Then, suddenly I felt a pang of pain that strikes directly at my heart.
"What's wrong, Kim?"
Napaangat ako ng ulo, nakita kong nakatayo na si Vash sa harapan ko. He looked at me with his worried expression.
"Ayos ka lang ba?"
Ayos lang ba ako? I smiled painfully. I am not fine! Ofcourse, I am not. Kapag naaalala ko si Clarence, kapag naaalala ko yung huling beses naming pag-uusap, nakakaramdam ako ng sakit. I feel hurt, and weak, and vulnerable.
"Hindi ako okay, doc. Hindi."
Umupo siya sa tabi ko at hinawakan ang kamay ko. He held my chin and made me look straight into his eyes, "What's bothering you? Tell me."
