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"Mommy, stawfish (starfish)!" says Andi, my 2 year old baby.
We're here at Maldives to have a vacation for 3 days. It's summer and wala naman akong patients for the whole week.
I really make it to a point na madalas kami sa beach dahil love na love 'to ni Andi.
That's also why at her very young age, she knows the sea creatures na kasi 'yun yung mga toys niya and cartoon characters na pinapanood niya.
"Yes, baby. It's a starfish!" I told her happily. Pumalakpak naman siya at binalik na ulit yung starfish sa dagat.
Nakakatuwa na instead of getting the starfish and play with it, binalik niya ulit sa dagat dahil it's a mommy daw and may babies siya na maiiwan.
"Miwk (Milk)?" she asked while cupping my face using her tiny hands.
"Kiss mommy first?" I told her at hinalikan niya naman ako agad. Napangiti ako doon at binuhat na siya papunta sa picnic cloth namin dito sa shore.
I gave her the bottle of milk that I prepared at nagpaligpit na ako kay Nina ng mga gamit dahil panigurado sleep na ang kasunod nito.
Si Nina, ang yaya ni Andi.
Kung ako lang ang masusunod, gusto ko talagang maging full time mom kay Andi dahil gustong gusto ko na ako ang mag-aalaga sakanya kaso napaka-imposible noon dahil kami lang naman dalawa sa buhay.
I need to go to work and she needs someone to be with her 24/7.
"Ate, ako na po bahala sa mga gamit niyo ni Andi. Mauna na po kayo dahil mukhang antok na antok na ang alaga ko, susunod nalang po ako pagtapos ko dito." sabi niya.
At totoo nga, tinignan ko si Andi na nakayapos sa leeg ko habang nakahilig sa balikat ko ang ulo, tulog na.
"Okay, Nina. Thank you." sabi ko at umakyat na with Andi in tow.
I laid her on the bed at tsaka ko siya binihisan then after ko siya maayos pumunta na ako sa cr.
Since it's too early pa naman to eat lunch, tinabihan ko muna si Andi.
I was staring at her face and I can't deny the fact that she looks like him a lot.
Well, maputi nga lang si Andi dahil nasa U.S kami nakatira, and she has a pinkish lips.
She only got her whiskers and dimples everytime she smiles from me, but the rest, sa Daddy niya na lalo na yung kilay, ilong, and mata.
I can't also help but to think about the time when she grows up and start look for her daddy because I don't know what would I tell her.
Wala naman na talaga akong balita sakanya at ni hindi ko nga alam if he's still alive or not.
I was drowning in my thoughts nang biglang yumakap sakin si Andi.
Niyakap ko siya at pinikit nalang din ang mata ko.
HIM
"Anak... thank God you're awake," sabi ni mommy habang umiiyak at lumapit sakin agad.
Hinaplos niya ang buhok ko at nakakunot naman ang noo ko dahil sobra akong naguguluhan sa nangyayari ngayon.
"Mom, where am I??? And how did you find me???" takang taka kong tanong.
"You're safe anak... you passed out three years ago and never woke up until today. Alyssa helped us to find you." sabi niya.
"Where is she?" I asked.
"We don't know anak, noong una she was here, binabantayan ka niya, but then she suddenly needed to go away for we don't know what reason it was and now she's nowhere to be found," kwento ni mommy.
"What? No... I need to see her, Mom. I'll go look for her," sabi ko at pilit na pumipiglas sakanila.
Mas hinawakan naman nila ako.
"What are you doing???" tanong ko.
"Son, it's hard, we know, but it's better if you would just forget about her and move on with your life. It's been how many years and everytime you both try again it's only leaving you no good," sabi ni Dad.
"No! You don't understand! I need her!" this time nagwawala na talaga ako.
"Thirdy tumawag ka ng nurse." sabi ni Mom at umalis naman agad si Thirdy.
"Kief, calm down." sabi ni Dad pero pilit parin ako kumakawala sakanila.
Biglang may nag-inject sakin at dumilim na ang paningin ko.
Alyssa.
