Defiance

1.7

Chapter 17

A L D R I C

Should I tell her anything? I couldn't decide. How was I supposed to trust her? What if she used that information against me? Just opening up to her will bring a storm for my wolf. Just a while ago, I promised myself, I would let Elysia go. I couldn't be with her. I had to let my mate go. I had decided I would give Freya the love she deserved. 

When I told Elysia she meant nothing to me, I was trying to convince myself. Maybe if I said it to her, even if it wasn't true, I could convince myself to let her go. But hearing Elysia scream was possibly the worst sound I ever heard. 

The second she was yelling and screaming, my body woke up. I ran to her, but on the floor, she was screaming and yelling. At the same time, her body was flinching and kicking. She was having a nightmare, except it seemed so much worse than a nightmare. I couldn't let her go, no matter what. I wanted to protect her from the world, to ensure her as long as I was alive, there was not a single person that would hurt her. 

I was glad she finally stopped shaking of fear. Just seconds before, I could sense her anger for me. I didn't blame her. I was being consistently changing the way I'd interact with her. 

Fuck you. She had said to me. 

And I deserved it. 

Can you make up your damn mind? 

No one had ever spoken to me with so attitude, with so much anger in a long time. 

Moon Goddess. I was being a dick. 

I couldn't take care of her and then tell her she meant nothing. She wasn't an idiot but I sure was. My wolf groaned in the back of my mind. 

Took you long enough. 

I turned back to Elysia. She was leaning against the headboard, her eyes shut but I knew she was listening.

"Tell me about your sister. Your father. Your mother. Your mate." She had asked. 

She didn't want to know any dangerous information. 

It was about me. Just me. 

She was so easy to talk to her. Even when I just told her I was the son of an Alpha, I could feel her attention on me, like she absorbing everything I was saying. My heart was thumping against my will. 

My head was against it; you open yourself up, you can never close that door again. But my wolf was excited.

He wanted to tell her everything. He wanted to know everything about her. 

"You already met Ella." I started. "I would die for her. She's thirteen. My father is a warrior. He taught me everything I know. My mother is dead."

"Do you have a mate?" Elysia whispered. Her heartbeat sped up as she asked the question. I nearly lost my breath. 

Did she understand what it meant to have mates? How did she even know? How was I supposed to answer this? You're my mate? She didn't know and I would ensure she never found out.

"No," I answered.

"Do you know if she's alive?" she asked.

Yes. 

I didn't want to talk about this anymore. 

It's you. It's you. You're my mate.

"I'm cursed. I'm not supposed to have a mate." I responded. I pretended like I didn't hear the way her heart sped up even faster as I said those words.