A L O N E

Chapter- 17

Tujhse mila toh jaagi duaayein
Aur nazar ne sajda kiya
~ Javed Ali

"Its your turn now." I pushed myself away from the warmth of his body regretting it the same second the cold air hit me. I raised my eyes to look up to his.

"My sister was being bullied." His body left me as he turned away from me. "She was a sweet girl. I never knew why they bullied her. I was so stuck up in my whole life, a perfect life that I never saw bruises on her body and that pained smile she used to give whenever  I asked her how she was. But when I did it was way to late for that." He completed while sniffing and I knew he was hiding many things, but I didn't asked decided to give him time and space.

"Why was she being bullied?" I asked him as he turned to look at me. His eyes were red from crying and his lips and nose were red too. I just want to cuddle his face in my hands and kiss it hundred times cause he's just so hot and cute at the same time.

Stop it kath.

" I dont know. I never knew and I will never would." He paused as I grab the opportunity to cradle his hands in mine and rub it in assurance. "It was all my fault. She never told anyone. Not even my mom because she's always busy and didn't had any time for us. So it was always us, we were so close and no one would even dare to tore us apart. But then we changed schools and everything changed.

"I became distanced from her. I got new friends, became a player, always had a girl beside me. Forget about the girl in my home waiting for me to eat dinner with her." As the words poured out of his mouth he look more and more distanced from me, like he's in another world living and doing things he's saying to me.

His family never had time for him, father left and mother too busy too work. He became distanced from his sister and his sister killed herself out of pain, both physical and mental.

He was never the same after that, he blamed whatever happened to his sister is his fault.

"Hey look at me." I cradled his face in my hands bringing us close and let our eyes met. "It wasn't your fault she was being bullied. Yes, you were reckless and never gave her time. You were so absorbed in your life that you forget that there is another person dependent on you. But trust me Noah it was never you fault. Don't blame yourself."

He looked like a broken doll. Never had anything to live and will never have anything to live for. His emotionless face staring at me made me almost pity him.

He just nodded and said nothing led me believe he still blames himself and I cannot do anything to change that.

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Noah got a girlfriend in the passing weeks, he texted me last night all excited saying that he got the one. There was this feeling inside me which was burning, like I already hate his girlfriend. Like jealousy, was I being jealous that Noah will not be that free for me or that I have a big fat crush on Noah and I want him all by myself.

Woooooooow slow it down kath.

Maybe it's just that I don't want to lose Noah, he was always be there for me. When I need him the most. Even when he needed me I was there. It was like we complete each other. But now there is someone else in his life, actually in both of us life.

And I'm ready to accept it yet. I'm not ready to accept Natasha , my sister as my best friend's girlfriend.

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