A L O N E

Chapter - 16

With all these people all around
I'm crippled with anxiety
-Justin Bieber & Ed Sheeran, I dont care

As soon as the words left his mouth he was out of scenario in a second like a rush of wind passed by. I couldn't even grasp the fact that Noah was here, said sorry and left.

I ran after him to confront whatever happened in the last seconds. One thing about me is that I hate confrontation or confronting anyone. But I gather all my strength and ran after him, ready to confront him. I catch up to his retreating back with his backpack slung on his back and his long legs keeping him up with his pace.

He never slowed down and I never got the chance to speak to him.

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That night I had it all planned out, I was gonna confront Noah. My anxieties were kicking in as a descended down the stairs where my family was sitting on the dining table, eating and laughing like they weren't missing a person. My sister saw me with little and gave a sad smile and waved, that grabbed the attention of my parents as they turned towards me.

"I'm going out" I nervously said. Father turned away as my mother nodded but said nothing.

I fast walked my way out of the door, crossed the small path from my home to Noah's. Standing in the front of his door. I rang the doorbell and waited, while picking the skin out of my nails. A habit of mine when I'm anxious. He opened the door smile fading away when he sees me as he took a step back to let me in. No words exchanged as we made our way upstairs to his room.

"Are you-um- okay?" After good 5 minutes of awkwardness between us he spoke up.

"Yeah why wouldn't I be?" I wasn't but I was really good at not showing my emotions, as I smiled to him showing that I really was.

"You know the deal with Asher and all" he scratched his head while speaking. His eyes roaming everywhere but me. A sign of anxiousness.

"Noah.... hey look at me" I neared him as I took his hand in mine. His blue eyes met mine and nearly took my breath away.

What is breathing??

I mentally shook my head to let my thoughts disappear. This is not the time.

"Are you okay Noah?" I asked him repeating his words to him.

"Should I lie like you did?" He shot back at me and for a second I was shock but I recovered knowing that he know me well enough.

"Does it matter?" His hand fully covered mine and a shiver ran down my spine.

Oh God fuck me.

"It matters to me. Please say what's wrong." His hand caressed my face as he bring my face close to his.

I sighed as I start speaking cause I know I'm not getting my way out of this, "I'm tired. I'm tired of everyone treating me like nothing." I sniffed as tears started to make it's way. "I don't wanna be alone anymore. I want someone to share, to laugh, to cry, to fight with. I have Neither my family nor anyone else around me. I want to have sleepovers. I want someone to complain about my nonexistent boyfriend-" I chuckled in between as Noah chuckled too "- I want to be just normal."

He grabbed my face and squished me in his arms like a living teddy bear. Running his fingers through my hairs and kissed me on forehead.

"I'm with you, never forget that."

I came here to confront him but all we did is complain about my problems.

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