A L O N E

Chapter-12

Even when she hears his voice, she's swarmed with butterflies
It's impossible to get you off my mind
I think about 100 thoughts and you are 99
I've understood that you will never be mine
And that's fine, I'm just breaking inside
-One Day, Tate McRae 

Surprised of his answer I looked up to him to find him looking at distance like he is thinking about something. Eyebrows furrowed and a sad smile dancing on his lips.

I couldn't say anything. The fact that his sister is dead, don't know why, how and when? He always thought of his sister whenever he looks at me.

"You make me remember her." He looked down at me with tears leaking from his eyes. And smiled. "Your smiles, your beautiful freckles-"I blushed at his comment, the first compliment I've get in my life. Are my freckles beautiful? "- the way you manage your bullies, the way you look at everything ,making everyone smile around me."

"Well that's flattering knowing that I make you remember your sister, but I'm far away from beautiful. Neither I have beautiful smile nor people smile whenever I'm around. It's the other way around."

"You are not confident in your own self, now are you?" He bit his lips holding his smile back.

"I never had the reason becoming confident in my self. Got looked down every time I looked up."

He rubbed my arm in assurance. His touch leaving sparks all over me. Being this close to Noah sparks up some feelings I've never felt before. Like the butterflies in my stomach, shivering under his touch. I always composed myself before he notices.

He's just a friend. A friend. A friend.

This is not something you think about when he's opening his past to you, you dumbass.

"What happened to your sister" I asked In the most low voice I could muster up.

"She killed herself" he said emotionless. Like a robot, like someone who's been practicing that line for years.

"Look at my self crying over my sister's death like a weakling." Noah chuckled and wipes his tears with back of his hand.

"Crying doesn't mean you're weak." I suddenly spoke catching Noah's attention who was busy wiping his tears. "The person who show there emotions are not weak. You need to have courage to show someone how you feel. Not everyone has that. I don't.  You have that courage and so today you cried in front of me and showed me your emotions. Never say that you're weak just because you cry or show any other emotion to someone."

He did nothing but looked at me with shock but quickly covering up with an amused expression. Showing his bright smile he ruffled up my hairs and hugged me again and cried.

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"It's my birthday tomorrow" Noah said in a sing song voice. He threw his arm around my shoulder and smiled at me. I was taking some books out from the locker for the second period.

It's been two days since I've talked to Noah about my dad and he told me about his sister. It's been heart breaking for both of us to talk about our past, but we did and oh! man it felt good. After lots of awkward glances, throat clearing and some stutters after, we became our normal selves.

And I still haven't decided what I'm gonna give him on his birthday.

"What do you want on your birthday from me Noah?" I asked him. Genuinely this would the first time after Eliana that I have to think about buying a gift to someone.

Leaving my shoulder free from his hands  he turn me around and pulled my cheeks saying, "Just be there my cute little best friend."

"First of all stop pulling my cheeks." And second of all did he just friendzoned me. Of course I wouldn't say that." And second of all please tell me what you need." I said taking his hand away from my cheeks. Ouch it hurts.

He came forward with a taunting smirk plastered on his face and he made sure to brush his lips on my ear and whispered "you." I blushed. I never blushed in my life before. When his lips brushed my ears a chill went down my spine.

I slapped his arm trying to get over the feeling of him,"Stop joking Noah."

He backed away from me still with his smirk and puts his arms up surrendering, " just kidding woman don't hit me."

I rolled my eyes and made my way to class still blushing like a fool.

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