Let Go

Chapter 9

The days pass quickly.

On that day, Jimin decided to head home early and let Yoongi pick you up from school. The next day he didn't come with the boys to go to your house, and that's how it's been even after a week.

The guys have taken notice but decided not to say anything about it.

Neither of you made an effort to reach out to the other – just like how it was when you ended your relationship.

One thing similar with you and Jimin would be your strong personalities.

Both of you never wanted to lose, no matter how big or small the argument is. It has always been a difficult task for both of you to admit your mistakes.

Pride.

Ego.

The two things both of you never want to let go of.

Your relationship with Jungkook, however, has been well.

You've went on several dates with him already, although most of the time you had to wear disguises.

He spends a lot of time in your house even if the boys are not around. He's been more affectionate towards you and he seems to now have a thing with your neck...as he's lightly biting it at the moment.

"Jungkook, stop," you giggle as you try to push his body off of yours while you lay on the bed. He doesn't listen and continues to nibble on your soft skin, "it tickles," you laugh.

Jungkook's phone chimes, "oh, the hyungs are here!" he excitedly says after reading the text.

"Everyone?" you ask, feeling slightly unsure if you want to hear his answer. "Yeah, I asked everyone to come." He stands up from the bed and fixes his shirt. He offers his hand to help you up, "why?"

He takes both of your hands in his and smiles at you, "I think we should tell them now. About us. I don't want to hide anything from them and I know they've noticed how I'm on my phone a lot more than usual." Your heart flutters at the thought of being able to tell someone about your relationship.

You wanted to experience being able to casually tell stories about you and your guy. To let them know some stuff you've wanted to share. You smile genuinely as you also found him cute as looks so excited to tell his hyungs about you.

"Okay," is all you say. Not thinking about the possible consequences it would have on you, Jungkook, and Jimin.

As you walk down the stairs, hand-in-hand, you start to feel the anxiety that has been growing in your stomach the moment you heard about everyone being in your house - especially when that everyone included Jimin.

You tighten your grip on Jungkook, palms slightly sweating and your body suddenly feeling cold. "Hey, it's alright. They're my hyungs. They'll understand," Jungkook comforts you, rubbing small circles on your hand. You force a smile as you finally reach the end of the stairs.

You inhale deeply before letting out a breath and nodding your head. "Let's go."

The guys are all lounging in the living room, busy with their phones. "Oh, Kook," Namjoon is the first to notice your arrival. Jimin looks up from his phone and immediately his gaze falls on your hand tightly holding Jungkook's.

"I, uh, we, have something to tell you," you hear Jungkook say but your eyes are fixed on Jimin's. His eyes are holding pained expression, enough to let you know that he's hurting.

You don't hear Jungkook announce it but soon the group erupts in cheers, expressing their happiness for your relationship.

"Finally! The sexual tension between you two was too much to bare!" Hoseok exclaims. You blush at his words.

"Wow. Honestly, I thought it would be Y/N and Jimin. Don't take it the wrong way though, I'm still happy for you guys," Namjoon smiles.

"Y/N-ssi! You're all grown up now!" Taehyung exclaims.

Jin grabs his chest, and says, "My daughter. Hey, Jungkookie! If you hurt her, you better not show yourself to me," the both of you laugh at his threat and you feel Jungkook's hand loosen its grip after feeling the acceptance of his hyungs.

"I'm happy for you guys, but what do you think will manager hyung say about this? And, where's Jimin?" Yoongi's words suddenly gets everyone quiet, noticing Jimin's absence.

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The warmth of the sun hits your skin as you rest by the railing. "Isn't it too hot there?" Jimin laughs from behind you as comfortably lounges on the maroon bean bag sitting under the roof. "Need to get some vitamin D," you jokingly reply.

"What are you doing there anyway? Join me here," you playfully pout at Jimin. You notice a notebook and a pencil in his hands. "I'm trying to write a song. I wanna show this to Namjoon hyung soon," he scrunches his nose, deep in thought once again.

You simply nod, admiring his determination. His dedication never fails to amaze you. It's a factor that you love about him. "This has always been your thinking place. It's cute," you tell him. He looks up at you from his notebook and smiles, "I feel a lot comfortable here. Especially when I'm with you," he winks.

You roll your eyes at his reply but can't help the blush rising in your cheeks. It's true, though. You and Jimin spend a lot of time together in your balcony. You feel free and it somehow makes you forget about the fact that you had to keep your relationship a secret.

"I love you, Chim," you randomly blurt out. You take seat beside him and rest your head on his shoulder. "I love you too, Y/N," he places a kiss on your temple.

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"I think I know where he is," you tell everyone. Their eyes land on you, expecting to hear a place from you. "I'll be back," you turn to leave but Jungkook lightly grips your wrist. "I'll come with you."

You try to ignore the begging look in his eyes as you decline his plea, "I'm sorry. I think I have to go alone." He's hesitant to let you go but does so anyway knowing it's not the right time to argue with you.

The boys are left confused as you bolt up the stairs then to your room. You internally groan as you realize the conflict you have set upon the boys.

Sliding the door open to your balcony, you find Jimin's figure sitting on the wooden floor, leaning against the wall as he hugs his knees to his chest. "Chim," you start off but he only ignores you.

His keeps his gaze fixed on the trees, not sparing you a glance. The tightening in your chest causes you to put a hand on it, feeling an unbearable pain from both it, and seeing Jimin's state. You don't realize the tears already streaming down your face as you sink down to your knees and scoot close to him. You pull his head to your chest and softly run your fingers through his hair "I'm so sorry."

You feel his body quiver in your arms, and the sniffling the sound he makes lets you know that he's been crying. He lets out a breath before speaking. "Don't be. I did this. To me. To us." And one by one, you feel his tears drop on your arm. "I hurt you. I couldn't give you what you wanted. I was never enough." His words are full of regret as he continues to cry. Suddenly, he lifts his head from your chest to look you in the eyes, "I hope he can give you everything I never did.

As the tears continue to leave their ducts, he cups your cheek with his right hand, "I was too late." A soft kiss is placed on your forehead before he stands up, leaving you in a crying mess on your balcony's floor.

A/N: Posting a double update cause I've been MIA for some time. Really sorry! :(

-S