It had been quite some time since you and Taehyung had last spoken. The devastation of losing your baby caused the two of you to fall apart, which lead to what you assumed was a breakup. He hadn't spoken to you in over a week, and had kept himself locked in his room almost every hour of the day, only opening it for Jimin to bring him food that he would barely touch.
You had tried so many times to speak to him, but he would just shut you down every time and it would have broken your heart, if it wasn't already broken. Namjoon had told you that he was going through the grief stages, and that all of this was normal and we just had to ride it out, but the only issue was that it wasn't normal. It was a thousand times worse for him because he had all the weight on his shoulders. Within this time, though, there had been no attacks or attempts on the house.
On the other hand, you hadn't left your room much either, so you couldn't blame the lack of communication entirely on him. Jimin also came to visit you, updating you on how Taehyung was doing each time but it was only getting worse each day. 'He's getting skinnier', he would say, or 'He won't even sleep', and it was starting to terrify you. What if he was planning to destroy himself in this way- slowly and painfully? There was no way that a single one of you could get through that, not after the first time that you almost lost him when the safehouse was raided.
Today, you had mustered up all your energy to try and speak to Taehyung once more. It was beginning to become a lost cause, but you couldn't give up on him. Not now. You even attempted to make yourself look healthy and happy with some makeup, mainly to help him feel better, and made him something to eat.
As you walk down the hall towards Taehyung's room, your exhausted hands shaking as you grip the tray, you attempt to internally plan what to say to him, but never really come up with anything. You let out a small breath as you balance the tray on your arm precariously and gently knock on the door, gaining no response from the other side.
"Tae? It's me. Can I come in, please?" You call out softly through the door, hoping that he would maybe give in to you. On the other side, you hear a faint shuffle of sheets and then the distinct sound of dragging feet towards the door. You plaster a smile onto your face as the sound of the lock clicks, and grip the tray with both hands as Taehyung slowly opens the door, stepping behind it as he did so. "I brought you some food." You speak softly as you head towards his desk, where his full tray of breakfast was sitting and place it down.
"Thanks." Taehyung grumbles deeply, his voice hoarse and dry as he moves to sit back on his bed. You sigh as you slowly turn around to look at him, instantly seeing what Jimin meant about him not eating or sleeping. Taehyung's clothes hung off his body massively and his bones were basically showing, while massive black bags made themselves at home under his exhausted eyes.
"Tae-"
"You can go now, if you want." Taehyung interrupts you as he lays down on his bed, a large sigh falling from his parched lips as he did so. Your heart shatters as you look at him, before you subconsciously move to the bed and sit on it behind Taehyung, instantly reaching to stroke his hair as you do so. "Y/N, please. I need to be alone." Taehyung whispers as he squeezes his eyes shut, tears building in them as soon as you touch him and a tremble running over his body.
"No, you don't. I know exactly what you need." You whisper back as you gently tap his shoulder, indicating for him to sit up. Taehyung gulps and slowly pushes himself up, his arms shaking as he did so, before gasping as you pull him into a tight hug. You hold back a sob as you clutch onto his frail body, before you feel his arms lock around your body as he begins to break down.
"I'm so, so sorry. Please forgive me. Please, Y/N." Taehyung sobs as he digs his fingers into your back, holding onto you like it was the only thing that would save him at this point. You hold back your brimming tears as you stroke his back in an attempt to calm him, unsure of how to actually help him right now.
"I forgive you. I already forgave you long ago, Tae. I just need you to come back to us now." You whisper to him softly as you turn your head and kiss him gently on the temple, causing another sob to break through his chest. Taehyung gradually slows his breathing and removes himself from clinging onto you, your shirt soaked with the tears that he was now wiping away.
"Do-Do you still love me?" He whispers as he looks down at himself, before clearing his throat and looking up at you. You nod instantly and smile, which causes him to force a small laugh from his dry throat. "I- That surprises me." Taehyung mumbles softly as he reaches out to you and links his hand with yours.
"I'll always love you, and you want to know why?" You reply with a soft smile as you stroke his hand, while he nods slowly. "It's because I know that you are a good man, and because I know that we can last through anything." You continue slowly, causing tears to come to Taehyung's eyes once more while you speak.
"Thank you." Taehyung whispers as he uses his free hand to wipe his tears, before he takes your face in both of his hands and kisses you lightly. "Can I ask you something?" He asks softly as he strokes your cheeks, while you nod and look deeply into his tired eyes. "Will you stay with me while I sleep? I don't want you to leave me." He asks sheepishly as he looks away from you for a moment.
"Whatever you need." You reply softly and slowly lay down on his chest, while he wraps his arms around you and gets comfortable on the bed. Within a matter of moments, he began to breathe deeply which meant he was asleep already. "I love you." You whisper as you brush some hair off his face, before laying back down on him and closing your eyes.
"I love you, too." He grumbles sleepily, before silence fills the room as the two of you fall asleep in one anothers arms.
