My Forever : A MaNan SS

22. 'Nandini missing?'

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You don't have to always express how you to feel to anyone. Sometimes if you feel low, it's better to keep it to yourself rather than listening to 10 people telling you the forget about it and get out of it. They might be right, but sometimes all you need is someone to understand why you're low and not ask you to get out of it. Sometimes it's okay to also not want anyone around you and just be with yourself. Is anyone going to understand that or are they going to say that "Oh, you don't trust me enough to talk to me about it."? Nah, not everyone will understand.

No, that's not true, sometimes you just don't know why you are feeling low. There are various things happening inside your head and the long suppressed frustration just happens to come out in the form of tears and make you feel low and also puts down your confidence level to a large extend. Sometimes all you need is just some peaceful and undisturbed time with yourself, to probably cry your heart out to feel lighter or to lift back your confidence. Either of it is a win-win situation on a personal level. So sometimes, being off people, and taking your time to get yourself back is always okay. People very close to you, might be mad at you, but you can always make up, right? If they are your main people, they'll surely understand. And some people wouldn't understand. But I'd say, never be sorry for thinking about yourself and keeping yourself above everyone else.

So sit back, and think about yourself, more than you think you should. Because, at the end of the day, it is you who is going to go into your grave all alone, right? Sounds extremely selfish, but is thinking about yourself really selfish? I'd rather be selfish, than selfless. Because selflessness most of the times hurt you and make you look as the bad person, sometimes in your own eyes. Rather be a good person in your own eyes, right? People call it selfish, I call it self love. Self love better than anything else in this brutally selfish world, darling. Never be sorry for loving yourself more than anyone else. I don't understand why be sorry.

Well, why this start? I don't know. Wanted to express some situation in the form of writing, so that's why. Does anyone else relate to it? To my darling readers, if y'all want anyone to just listen to you, I'm literally just one text away. I won't judge, I won't even suggest anything if you just want to vent out your frustration or thought. I'll help you if you want my help. I'm literally just one text away. But just don't choke yourself with that suffocating feeling. You guys have no idea how much I love y'all.

Anyway, now let's get back to the story. I know I'm so late, but I'm genuinely sorry. I'll put down the reason at the end. But love y'all, my darling people.

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Next morning Nandini woke up and went to have a bath for college. She hadn't checked her phone since she woke up. She even went down to eat breakfast, but she didn't carry her phone. She just took a slice of bread and moved out of the house after bidding Ishita bye. She did not meet Raman or Abhi as well. Ishita found it extremely weird but she let go of it, thinking she has some work in college. After a while Abhi came down and asked Ishita, 'Maa, where is Nandini? Manik has been calling her since an hour but she hasn't picked his calls or even seen any messages. He's getting worried.'

Ishita frowned and said, 'Abhi, Nandini left for college half an hour back.' Abhi in a panic tone said, 'Maa, Manik is in college as well and she isn't there and that's why he called me. College is just 10 minutes away. Where is she? Let me call her and track her phone.' Abhi said it all in a go, and the fear in his voice was very well evident. Ishita got worried as well and immediately called Manik and explained him the situation. Manik hung up the call immediately and rushed to Murthy house. Raman also came down and Ishita told him about Nandini not being anywhere in their knowledge. Raman immediately called Raj unaware that Manik only told them that she isn't in college.