"Hey Vic" I smile, coming up to him. As his arms wrap around me, they feel stronger then before, more toned, but the warm and inviting smell of his cologne is the same as it always it
"Hey Amanda" he pulls back "Its been a minute, How've you been?"
We're standing at inside the Venue, right by the door, which let in a cold draft. Around us is a crowded room with drum sets, and different gear, but a few feet away is explicitly my and my bands items. "Good good. How bout you?"
He starts walking forward, as if he's been here before; which he probably has. "I've been alright. How's your new house?"
I follow him, and we walk out side stage, where I can see onto the stage, where there are not yet fans. "I love it so far!" As well as I can see in the pit with all the lights on, Lyric and Grim fucking around, dancing and shit, while crew moves things around. There's music playing, then he turns, and goes down the hall, where we walk past dressing rooms, till eventually we get to the lounge. Back here, there's Hayley, her band, Brandon, Johnnie, some of There crew; the rest is doing shit with mine.
"That's good. Ah! Hayley!" Vic ditches me and walks over to Hayley
"Ah! Vic!" She smiles, and they exchange a hug... I didn't know they knew each other "Wow, it's been years huh?"
"Since the last Warped I played" he chuckles, I walk over to them but stay a bit back
"Two thousand twelve, ya?" Her eyes widen, and they laugh
"Want to go get a drink?"
"Sure" he nods, and I kind of stand around, not knowing where to go
"Hey" Taylor comes up to me
"Hi" I nod, he's just gonna leave after a two second conversation
"How come Vic's here?" He raises an eyebrow
"Uh, he's playing with us tonight- I'm gonna go set up"
This time I walk away. I go back stage, and to my surprise; even though I'm early, everyone's already over here. "Hey" lyric greets me. I smile, nodding st her, then quietly I get my equipment. They can tell something's wrong but they don't say anything or badger me about it. I get all tuned up, then when I'm putting everything on stage, I have to stop. And deciding we have fifteen minutes, I abondon it and run to the green room.
"Hey What's wring?" Vic asks when he sees me
I look away, and hide in the room, locking it behind me. I start to breath super heavy and short, then tears trickle down my face. Good thing I'm not wearing makeup, "Amanda let me in?"
"What's going on?"
"She's having anxiety" I hear Grim say
Why do I even preform, if I have stupid immature "spazz" attacks like my dad calls it. I try blowing on my thumb but it doesn't work, so I get my inhaler. When I calm down a bit, I grab my dab pen out of my purse and take four hits. I'm gonna be zoomed, but that's better then what it's like now.
"Amanda, I'm gonna set up for you, take your time" Grim says, then walks away
"It's Vic, can I come in?" I stay quiet, I want it to hit before I see anyone "Please"
I huff, then grab my phone. I look over my appearance in the camera, then when I look up from it, everything's blurry, and though my heart races it feels good. I stand up, then wobble to the door, and when I open it I walk past Vic.
The hall way is bouncing around and I'm not sure if I'm gonna be able to sing, "If you were me you'd do the same!" I sing for a minute "WE CHILLIN!" I laugh uncomfortably, then go set up
"Hey, are you good?" Grim says I bite my lip, smiling, nodding, then bursting out into laughter, "Your better then good"
"Yeah" I breath out "I'll keep it together though"
The lights turn on and I start getting paranoid, then I scream out, "Hey mothers hello???" Everyone cheers "I have a special surprise tonight! Get fucking ready!" Louder, louder, "But for now, we're gonna play a few songs"
The drums start beating, and I stumble around the stage, laughing and giggling. It feels good. Then I go back to the mic, and sing regularly. I think I am anyway, I can't remember. Then the next time I announce, it's right before Vic comes on, "Are you guys ready for your surprise?" Did I just say that? "VIC!" Everyone gasps and screams, then Vic runs out
"Hey!" He smiles
"Hey Vic" I sing, and he laughs nervously
"Can we do something I like to do at my shows?" I nod "Let's get a fan up here!"
Everyone screams, then I chose a girl from the audience. A crew member pulls her up and gets her on stage, then, I say, "Hi, what's your name?"
"A-Ally"
"I'm Amanda" I say
"I know" she laughs and so do I
"We're gonna sing for you okay?"
"O-Okay"
Vic and I hold her hands, then sing to her. At the end of it, she hugs us so tight, and we take a selfie with her, and the whole ass audience. Then when we run off, Vic says, "Yo, what happened?"
"I don't know" I shrug
"Grim said-"
"Anxiety ya ya" I nod "I'm sorry-"
"No don't be" he chuckles, then hugs me "Tony has anxiety, I feel"
"Yeah, I just question sometimes why I even do this, if I'm just going to have panic attacks all the time"
"Don't think that way" he smiles at me "This too shall pass"
I roll my eyes laughing, "Cheesy"
We celebrate the end of a tour by going to Jaime's after... I haven't seen Jess in a minute! I've seen her since the wedding, but I think it's been a month or two.
"Amanda!" She squeaks, pulling me into a hug "Where have you been?! Why haven't we hung out?"
"I don't know" I sing "Modeling and shit, I've been busy"
"Well we're hanging out soon" she smiles
"I guess I have to now"
We laugh, then catch up for a while until it's too noisy to talk. My entire band, Pierce The Veil, a bunch of their friends, our crew, Black Veil, Jack Barakat, and a bunch of Jaime's friends.
We all end up -or most of us end up- in the garage where there's a ping pong table and we play beer pong. There's also some couches and cool shit, and it's hella fun. Then a drunk Jaime picks up a big phat old ass dog, that's surprisingly adorable, and starts running around with it. Then me, Jaime, and some other dudes go outside and Jaime shows us the horse drawn carriage he built. He has his horses pull him around, then the whole add thing breaks.
"I wanna fly my jet!" He starts running over to his jet and Jess shrieks
"Jaime!"
"I'm a pilot!" He shimmies
"Your drunk!" She goes over to him laughing, and kisses him, then they makeout against the fucking plane, and we go in
The night is fun, filled with friends both new and old, and a great end to a tour
