Introvert and Proud

Diary Entry #5

Thursday, September 26, 2014

  Dear Diary,

  Yesterday, something odd happened but I can't be sure if it was a figment of my imagination or something really real. I was having a shower and felt the hot water trickle down my body. I grabbed some shampoo and squirted a small amount onto my hair and then it was as if time had frozen. Everything was silent, I couldn't hear Mom's loud voice booming nor could I hear my brother yapping with energy. It was silent and my eyes locked onto the shower, the water was still. 

 It was beautiful, it was such a sight to see. There were droplets of water in mid-air, I drew my finger and poked at it and it instantly fell to the tiled floor. I nearly gasped but I kept it in. Just like that, everything was moving again and I could hear the noises from downstairs. I blinked my eyes a couple of times to make sure that I was going insane. Do you think that was possible? I don't. I think it was just my imagination playing tricks on me.

 Today, we had gym and I'll tell you that I did enjoy it. I was sick of wearing jeans and plimsolls, it came to the point where I began feeling insecure of what I wore. My friends did not say a thing but I could tell they noticed my discomfort but they kept silent about it. But he, he was so straight-forward and came out with it. I stuck my tongue out at him childishly and he just laughed.

 So far, nothing has frozen today and I was a bit grateful but a little bubble in me, hoped that it would happen again. It amazed me entirely because I had not seen anything so beautiful before. I had witnessed everything that God has created but there was something that I was drawn to.

 At the moment, I was sat on the gym floor, along with Ruby, Marie and Yassie. We were all making small talk about prom, I couldn't help but ask if they were going to go and Ruby and Yassie were going. While Marie couldn't, since her religion somewhat forbid men and women to get into close contact or something of that sort. I told her that I would gladly go, if I could eat all the food I wanted and at this she chuckled. 

 But the truth of the matter was that, I didn't have anyone to go with. No one really thought I was worth asking because I wasn't pretty, nor did I have great grades or wear designer clothing. And in a way, I was disappointed. I was really looking forward to prom this year since the last one was not really memorable.

 We were about to leave when it happened, silence and still motions, our gym teacher, Miss Ingram was in the middle of speaking so her jaw was hanging while her eyes rolled back. It was rather hilarious but I decided to experiment further. In the time interval, I slowly moved my head to his direction, he was standing five feet in front of the basketball hoop. I wanted to approach him but I stopped myself before I could. The first thing I did was approach Miss Ingram. I studied her face, so delicate and young, like her. I touched her shoulder and then it was gone again.

 Everyone was moving and making noise and dribbling the ball. Miss Ingram realized I was right in front of her.

 "Oh, Jill! You startled me," she remarked. I, too, understood I was invading her space. I backed up a few steps and sent her a friendly smile.

"S-sorry, Miss Ingram, it won't happen again." I apologized, she grinned and patted me on my back. She told me that I had no reason to be sorry and to skedaddle because lunch was coming up. I okayed and left, making one last glance at the gym before leaving for good.