Lost Without You

Chapter 10: I Love Him?

Amna's POV

As he turned around I felt I was drowned. The air blocked through my throat cords. He too seemed to freeze, he was shocked to core could be clearly shown from his facial expression.

"Hey.. " I gasped, just above a whisper.

"Hey, Assalam-o-Alaikum, I mean how are you?" He babbled, nervously, making me relief.

At least, I wasn't alone.

I smiled. "Walaikum Asalam, how come you here. Such a big surprise. " I said, strangely.

He looked at me attentively making me nervous. "I think you know Sajala is marrying Ali. " He said.

I frowned, "Yeah, I know, why? "

"Then I'm basically his friend and it doesn't look nice to not to attend your friends wedding. " He said lowly making me smile awkwardly.

Why was he being rude? Arrogant, still his straightforwardness slightly hurted me.

A soft pinch on hot beating heart felt hard.

"Hmm.. "

"So, I should leave the Nikkah is about to start. Allah Hafiz. " He greeted with possible haste and went off zooming his car, leaving me disoriented in the middle of road.

Don't know why my heart clenched in pain. His few words pinched me hard. A slow poison. What exactly I was feeling for him? Tears brought up in my eyes.

I had wondered maybe he felt the same that maybe he went through like me but the hard mask he had masked making it really impossible to study what was inside his mind.

Maybe to deny it...But why?

After trying to find something likable I blinked my long stare at the deserted road. It broke my heart, painfully.

I felt like crying hard. All my feelings were just a waste of time. How stupid of me to think he would love me.
I whimpered a lump forming in my throat.

He never likes you back Aman admit it. My mind was on its bitter state.

I clutched my lehnga maybe atmosphere too wanted to put some salt on my burning heart.

A loud roar of cloud followed by fierce wind gusts, I shivered on my place. Slowly rain began to pour down.

I was broken like hell. Didn't know how it feels to handle your breakdowns. I was unwantedly waiting for him like crazy and here he hadn't even recognize me.

I sprinted inside wanted to be out from this place, away from his face, far away from his those punishing hazel orbs which showed nothing just made me realize that how much I damaged myself without him informing.

I ran and stopped only to find a pathway leading to the back of house. Ignoring away the fear of darkness, I hide myself to have a moment for myself.

I was gasping for breath and cradled down sliding with wall and clasped my knee's with chest and buried my face in my legs.

He was looking apprehensive like he didn't recognize who I am, like working his brain hard to point out where he saw me. I wanted to punch his face so hard.

I cried my shoulders jerking up and down followed by involuntary hiccups. The loud rain fading away my voice as more traiters fell displaying my broken self.

I hated myself for feeling like this. How could I let him make me feel like this. I was helpless unable to erase them. They were my purest and virgin feelings even before I would realize he broke my heart.