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~Memories of the Past~ Chapter 1

I watched the sky turn from pale blue to orange-red in a matter of seconds,as the sun went down. Even that reminded me of all the pain I've felt so far in my life. The pale blue represents my younger, happier,carefree days, while the orange-red reminds me of my more recent years that have been filled with heartbreak,sadness and depression.

Realizing I was about to go too deep into those dark memories I quickly snapped myself out of it, just in time to hear my mom screaming my name. "Ugh what does she want this time." I muttered as I made my way inside. She knows I like my quiet time on the roof every evening, yet I feel like she's always purposely calling me for unnecessary reasons just to get me inside. I quickly made my way down stairs and into the kitchen where my mom was standing over the dinner. "Yes mom,what is it this time?" I said, as I stood there annoyed at the fact that she didn't seem to have wanted anything. "I just wanted to make sure you were still here" she said as she looked at me with worried eyes. "Stop looking at me,like that I'm fine, and where else would I be? You know I don't go out much, so stop worrying, I'll be in my room" and with that I left before she could even respond.

I got into my room and threw my body unto the bed. For some reason I felt exhausted and I haven't done much all day, come to think ever since the summer started I haven't really left my house or anything. I sighed as I took out my phone and began to read a message I had gotten about an hour ago. It was from my bestfriend Cassidy, she too was worried about me, even though I've told her over and over again that I'm fine. Sometimes I get extremely annoyed at the fact that they won't believe me and just let it go,but then I remember it's because they care. So anyways I read the text, and apparently Cassidy wants me to go to the movies with her and her boyfriend! Like what the actually fudge! She knows I don't go to the movies anymore, especially as a third wheeler, I threw my phone down without attempting to reply. I mean what makes her think I'd actually go to the movies with her and her boyfriend, to endure 2 1/2 hours of awkwardness, because I'm pretty sure they'll be making out the entire time and I'll just be sitting there like a lonely weirdo. Besides I don't like to be around couples anymore, they remind me of everything I rather not think of.

Now that Cassidy as reminded me of the movies,the memories begin to flood my mind, and though those were the sweet ones, the not so sweet ones begin to resurface too, and soon enough I burst out into tears. I hated myself for always still crying, after all it's been two years, but I couldn't help it, the pain was still fresh in my memory. I quickly pulled myself together as I heard a knock on my door. "Hailey? are you ok?" I took a deep breath,ready to respond as I heard my mom's soft voice coming from the other side of the door. "Yeah I'm ok mom, just laying down for a bit" "Ok, dinner is ready" she said, making her way back down stairs. "I'll be down in a minute" I yelled back.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face, as an attempt to remove any sign of me crying a few minutes ago, because I knew if my mom noticed she'd start to worry even more than she as already been doing. I went down to have dinner, and as I made the turn to the dinning table a sweet aroma hit my nose, up until that time I forgot how hungry I was. "I made your favorite sweetheart" my mom said smiling at me, and for the first time I actually genuinely smiled back, because indeed chicken pot pie was my favorite. "Wow thanks mom, I'm starving." Without hesitation I sat down, and began digging in. After about 10 minutes I was finished, and I peered up to see my mom smiling with satisfaction.

"Haha thanks again mom,now you go relax, I'll wash up." "You're welcome love and thank you."

She kissed my forehead, then went upstairs. I quickly washed up then went straight to the bathroom, took a shower and headed to bed. I searched for my earphones before turning off the lights. "Dammit I'm always forgetting where I last had those,ugh" After about two minutes I found them and immediately started listening to Amnesia by 5 Seconds of Summer.

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"No!! Jake you don't have to do this!! Stop it Jake!! Jake!!!!" "C'mon babe you know you've always wanted this" "Yes but not like this, Jake please don't!!!" NOOOOOO!!

"Hailey! Hailey!! wake up!! wake up!!" I peeled my eyes open to see Cassidy shaking me. "Okay I'm up, I'm up!" "Finally! you were having a nightmare I assume" I sighed remembering the dream now. "Yes I was, but I don't wanna talk about it, by the way why are you here so early?" I sat up looking at Cas puzzled,trying to remember if we had made plans to hang out today.

"I just thought you needed some Cas time" Cas said bouncing around my room, allowing her blonde curly hair to flop all over her face. I rolled my eyes. "Well you're wrong, I wanna be alone." Hearing this Cas stopped bouncing and pretended to make a sad face. " Ha I know you're lying, I have the day all planned out, we're gonna go to the mall because I'm in need of new outfits, and I'm sure you do too!" I got up from the bed and made my way to the bathroom. "And what makes you think I need to outfits, I hardly leave my house anyways, and you know this Cas." "Ok fine! But I just want you to be happy Hailey, I want my old best friend back" Cas said while frowning. "Alright I'll come, just let me get ready" And with that I pushed her out of my bedroom, and closed the door.

HEY GUYS!! OK SO THIS IS MY FIRST EVER BOOK, I JUST STARTED IT SO OF COUSRSE IT WON'T BE PERFECT SO IF YOU HAVE ANY SUGGESTIONS JUST LET ME KNOW, I COULD REALLY USE SOME HELP. I'LL TRY MY BEST TO UPDATE VERY FREQUENTLY BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU ALL TO GET BORED.