dear channie hyung,
you've only been gone for a week.
o n e w e e k.
trust me when i write this, but it feels like a whole year has passed.
just one week ago, we all were still together, laughing and enjoying our crazy lives. i had a gut feeling something was off with you. and when i pulled you aside after dinner the night before, you pat me on the shoulder and said everything was okay, that you were just stressed and tired.
and of course i believed you. my hyung wouldn't lie to me. yet he did.
i'm trying not to be angry since that's felix's thing to do so these past few days.
he's been lashing out at us whenever we talked about you in the past tense or try to live our life, even though we got free time for a while now...to heal.
but i think keeping busy and our minds occupied is better than launch around each other all day and be constantly reminded of you.
how long will it take for us to heal? will we ever be able to get up and not miss you?
yours truly,
seungmin
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eight letters | skz
Fanficin which bang chan has committed suicide and his band members are trying to cope with the grief by writing letters to him. © hugjinie
