Redemption

18..

I woke up with determination today. Either I'm going far away from here or else I'm going to hell  for killing everybody who stop me.

I did my morning routine and after getting dressed and then sit down to work.

And then whole day I made plans about what I have to take, how I have to dress, when I need to run away, where will I go, how will I go...

And then I realise I can plan nothing in this right now because I don't even know what I'm  supposed to do, where I'm supposed to go and how I'm supposed to go.

So my running away is basically depend on my luck and my common sense.

As the night began to crept in I jumped into the dinning room and eat as much as I can because I have no idea when I will be eating my next  meal.

I ignore randhir presence and the way he look at me suspiciously.

Last week went away lazily where he tried to earn my forgiveness. I must say he tried to care for us bringing us flowers and chocolates. But I didn't except them.

Okay okay I may had one or chocolates. Okay. But thats all.

But he should know that it's not gonna happening. He had ruined me in a way where I can never be cured.

Now all I just want is some money.

I make my way lazily to my room not to look too much excited to run away.

I took out the money that I have literally  "stolen" from his room. 

I hope my baby won't hate me for this.

Now I'm just waiting for him to come and tell goodnight to us as he been doing for past few days. Then he is going to go and sleep in his study room.

Yes. I have been stalking him and noticing his routine.

I know he must be coming. I stuff the money in my back pocket of my jeans and quickly pushed my small bag beneath the bed. Then I jumped on the bed with my shoes on.

Momma is stupid but you never take shoes on your bed baby.

Then I covered myself with a blanket till my neck and when I hear the door open I close my eyes and pretend to sleep.

Then I hear his footsteps coming near to bed.

I hope he don't find out. Please God switch off his detective skills for a minute.

I hope he don't notice that I was sleeping with lights on today. I hope he don't notice how I'm fully covered in the blankets today. I hope he don't notice the black weapon that I forget to put in my bag.

Oh God why ?

Told you. It's only my luck which can take me out of this house today.

Thank you for reading. ...

So what do you think she will run away or will randhir be able to work his charm or maybe his detective skills to keep her to himself? 

Your love means a lot to me. Thank you.