Redemption

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She just didn't know how much time she need to stay in this bathtub to clear her mind. The way her mind and heart are betraying her is terrible. She feel terrible. It's just not right. She can't even pin point on the reason on which her mind and heart are in a war.

Is it because of not seeing twins for three weeks?

Or its the medicine?

She just know what is it but she was two scared to admit it.

It's him.

It was always him.

She wasn't even sure how she is feeling after being ignored for these three weeks.

The thought is making her feel more terrible than she already was.

But not anymore.

That's what she thought when she decided to have a nice talk with him tonight. If he decided to show up. She wasn't so sure about his arrival because he barely visit her nowadays. The fact that now she is healed she is ready to pack her bags and being thrown out of the house if he say so.

She just didn't know where is she wrong?

Okay wait.

Maybe she busy didn't know was she even right anywhere?

Keeping the kids away from their father. Telling him not to tell about us ever.

She is doing this to her own kids. The kids whom she love most in the world.

Finally getting out of the bath she desired to clear the things out as soon as she got any chance.

But she don't think she was this much ready when she hear the door downstairs being open and then slam shut.

Only he have the keys.

Drying herself up in a moment and getting into a loose shirt and sweat pants, she decides to go downstairs now.

She know she don't have any plans but that's not new she never had any when it comes to him.

He is himself the most unpredictable thing happened in her life.

Teaching downstairs he saw him getting himself a glass of water. He look tired as always.

She already knew that the kids are with the old couple but she just need a topic.

"How are they? " she clear her throat

He just have her a side glance before ignoring get again.

Then putting the glass down he moved towards the room down stairs.

She knew what's gonna happen. He's gonna lock himself inside and wait me to disappear in the room. But she don't think she can't it happening today.

That's when she decided to step in.

***

Days went avoiding her. Nights went gazing at her.

This is how he had been spending his time.

Sometimes he wonders if he is really doing right things. Is he really messing her life more than before by just entering in it. Would they be more happy if he went away? Or should he regret coming back into their lives? They might had just move on with their lives if he had not entered in it.

By the way he is not making any such difference in their lives. The kids still don't know that he is their dad. They are still getting bullied at school for not knowing who their dad is. He might not even knew this if he didn't hear them talking about it one day.

He is still wondering how much their lives changed because of him.

He is finding an excuse to stay.

And he is terribly failing at this.

Should he really stay?

He don't think it would make any difference in their lives if he got vanished again from their lives.

He have a hope in his heart. But his mind know the heart is messing up with the hope badly.

Maybe he should just talk it out. Or maybe he should just go.

Still withering in himself he made his way inside his house.

He stop himself from thinking about her whereabouts. He will visit her after she sleep and state at her till morning just like he always do.

Creepy much. But he had to do this. He had to plant that image in his mind just in case he had to live his life without her.

Thank you so much.

I know it felt like decades but next chapter is what you guys are yearning for.

Wish me luck for the next chapter. I really need it is guess.

Just hoping you guys will get it soon.