"YOU'RE WHAT?!"
I felt instantly guilty as Matt started crying along with me. I hadn't meant for his band to find out too. They all slowly came to him and sat. I tried to block out their conversation as they comforted him, saying they were sorry and accepted it.
"I can't be here.." I muttered and stood, the towel falling from around my shoulders.
"Andy, wait." Matt said, getting to his feet. I look at him,
"It's not you Matt. I just need to be alone." I kissed his forehead then walked off the bus. I squinted through the rain, then went back to where Matt and I had first kissed. I went underneath a little over-hang and lit a cigarette, taking a long drag and exhaling it slowly, tilting my head back and closing my eyes.
"I figured I'd find you out here."
Great. Just fucking great. I opened my eyes to see Ashley standing in the rain, a black umbrella opened over his head.
"What the fuck do you want Purdy?" I growled, looking away and taking another drag.
"What? So we're not even one a first name basis anymore?" he asked, sounding hurt. Him? Fucking hurt.
I whirled to face him and flicked my cigarette out into the rain, "No, Purdy, we're not." I snapped, "Because you know what? You hurt me too many time!" my voice was rising to a shout, but I didn't care, "First you kiss me knowing that I fucking love you then tell me you're still straight and then you go off and date some whore and when you're telling us all you look right at me when you tell us it like you want me to go and fucking kill myself or something!"
Ash just stared at me in shock, "You... You love me?" he whispered.
"NO SHIT ASH!" I screamed.
