as blind as love (frerard-TeacherXstudent)

the hospital

Mikey 

we made it to the hospital eventually where Gerard was wheeled off into the hospital, and i had to practically carry frank into the hospital like a kid. we made it into the waiting room where he just hugged me and cried into my shoulder for an hour

"frank...frank listen to me, hes going to be ok...this happens all the time, hes ok" i tried to calm him down because i may as well gone swimming with how wet my shirt was

"b-but wha-what if, if hes not" he questions 

"look, we can go see him now, come on" i said as i pulled him up and walked into Gerard room, he was lying in the hospital bed lying on his back looking up to the ceiling, but i couldn't tell if he was conscious yet,

"hey gee, you awake yet" he just sniffles in response while frank stands behind me

"wheres...da-daddy, i want my daddy" Gerard says crying, he says this sometimes and it kills me to tell him, frank runs up to Gerard and hug's him tightly and cry's into his shoulder

"Frankie is-is that you" he mumbles

"yeh gee, its me" frank sniffles but has now stopped crying 

"Frankie, wheres my dad" frank looks over to me and i just shrug leaving it up to him

"he's not here geebear" he caresses his cheek calming him 

"Mikey, whys da never here" i wish i could wait till he realises himself but i did that before but it never worked out well, i sighed ready to tell him

"gee honey, remember that night when you where 10, and dad took you out to see the fire works an-" i soon realised i made a mistake

"w-what, why would dad take me to see the fire works if i was blind" he quizzed

"i-i well i- forget i said that" trying so desperately to backtrack because i don't want to give him flash backs

"NO...YOUR GOING TO TELL ME...WHY HAVE YOU LIED TO ME" he yelled, i told frank to wait out side for a moment of privacy 

"ok ok, i'm sorry i just didn't want to bring that day back to you, so the day dad died you went to see fireworks and on the way back you and dad where beaten on the streets, where dad was murdered and you had severe head trauma which made you loose your sight. i'm sorry i never told you the whole story because you had memory loss and forgot that day, but was told to not tell you in case you remembered it. i'm so so sorry gee" at this point i was balling my eyes out and hugging the only person i have left.

"i-its ok, but i remember now, it was the 4th of July celebration. and i'm so glad you hated fireworks when you where younger" he let out a dry laugh, it was a good point though, i didn't go because i didn't like the fireworks, but if i did go id probably be dead 

"do you want to see frank now" i asked

"yeh please" he nodded and i walked out to get frank

"he wants to see you know" i gave frank a quick hug and ran to get a coffee

~frank~

i walked into gees room after Mikey ran off to presumably get coffee 

"hey gee, how you doing" i asked as i sat on the end of the bed

"fine...part from the fact that I've been lied  to for the past 11 years on how i lost my own sight" he grumbled

"oh, whys that...only if you want to tell me that is" i say nervous that i'm pushing boundary's 

"well long story short, my father was murdered and they basically kicked my head so hard i lost my sight" he huffed and crossed his arms

"i'm so sorry gee...i really am" i feel so bad for my geebear, how could anyone hurt him. moments later Mikey came in with three cups of coffee

"we can go now gee" he said while handing him his coffee. Gerard hummed as he sat up and swung his legs over the bed and stood up

"god I've got to deal with questions tomorrow don't i" he said sadly as Mikey guided him out to the bus stop

"sadly my friend, sadly" Mikey sighed but there was a small smile there, we finally made it on the bus and made our way home.

we made it home and Mikey allowed me to stay over because he wanted to talk to me, he unlocked the front door and told me to wait in the kitchen while he sorts Gerard out, moments later he came down and sat next to me and started to cry.

"I'm such a bad brother, i lied to him but i only did it to stop the flashbacks but now he hates me, i try so hard and i feel bad, he misses his dad and we have no mother because we don't even know where she is at the moment she could  be dead for all we know, Pete Wentz is an ass whole, he cheated on me so That's just rainbows isn't it, then ray asked me out saying hes always had feelings for me, so that's the only good thing that's come out of this week, i just wish my brother wasn't like this, and I'm sorry for ranting but your the only one i can really tell." he finishes of his rant and continues to cry on my shoulder 

"shh its ok, Pete doesn't deserve you, your to good for him, and ray...ray will treat you like a prince i know that for a fact, he always tells me how much he loves you, and your not a bad brother for trying to protect your brother, hes strong i know he will get through this and he loves you so much as a baby brother, i miss my dad too so i know what it feels like, and my mom isn't much of a mother either, things will smooth out eventually, trust me" i rub circles on his back to calm him down and it works

"thank you for letting me rant" he laughs "its why i love you as a friend, no mater how many times your an ass" we both laugh " do you want to stay over since your mom has fucked off somewhere" i smile and agree, Mikey walks off and comes back with a pillow and blanket, "well...the sofa is kinda comfy um i guess Gerard might let you sleep with him if you want to"

"uh yes please, shall i ask now" i secretly hope i can

"yeh, but I'm just warning you, he does have nightmares so try calm him if you can but if not just come and get me, ok" i nodded my head and picked up the pillow and blanket to make my way to Gerard room, i knocked at the door

"come in" he shouted, and i opened the door and gasped, the walls where covered in art work and it seemed to concise of the same characters that i saw on the white board at school

"hey gee, your rooms amazing" 

"thanks" he muttered shyly 

"who are the people you draw" i ask since there repeated every where

"oh er there the killjoys, the um people that kinda or meant to look like you, Mikey, me and ray" he laughed nervously 

"how er do you know what we look like"

"Mikey has described you all, so i based it off of that, and the other characters that have masks are called draculoids and the bold guy is called korse and there part of the better living industry in a place called battery city." he says proudly 

"that's amazing gee" i say

"anyway what did you want" he scratches the back of his neck

"i er wanted to sleep in your room tonight, if that ok with you"

"yeh that's fine, you can sleep in my bed tonight if you want" i nodded and walked over, then realising he cant see i verbally replayed. we snuggled up with each other Gerard being big spoon. i waited until his breathing slowed showing that he had finally fell asleep, i then let the sleep take over my body, drifting into a dreamless sleep.

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this is a long chapter to make up for the lack of uploading 

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