To Love Again (Lesbian)

Chapter 8

Cayla's POV:

Boy was I nervous.

Walking into the beautiful warm building, I looked around while I followed Nae to the desk. I had told Octavia everything that happened while Nae was in jail so it would be much easier to handle things because honestly, Janae would make me feel so low its unbelievable.

"We're here to see Ms. Nelson." I said looking at the receptionist that probably already knew why I was here.

She paged Octavia and told us it's okay for us to go inside. I held Janae's hand while we walked to the room and I grew more nervous the closer we got.

"Why are your palms so sweaty?" Nae asked letting go of my hand while smiling at me. "I don't know. I guess...ummm I don't know." I responded sounding stupid.

"Okay..." Nae raised a brow at me then turned around and knocked on the door. A few seconds later, the door opened and Octavia smiled and welcomed us inside.

Right now I felt like I was sh*tting bricks and that was not good. "Good morning! How are you ladies this morning?" She asked.

"I'm doing great, just wondering why this one over here has been acting weird." Janae said looking at me.

I shook my head and placed a fake smile on my face. "Whatever Janae."

We took a seat on the sofa and Janae held me by my waist. "So I told you to bring Cayla because she has a big effect on your life. Do you want to explain to her how you feel?" Octavia asked pushing up her glasses a little.

"Yes," She turned to me and looked me in my eyes. "Cayla I just wanted to tell you how much you mean to me. You helped me through my problems and the trust issues I used to have earlier in our relationship. I feel like it's that time we get married and settle down...So I was wondering if you wanted to maybe get married and...and ummm have a baby with me." She smiled her eyes welled up with tears.

I hate what I'm about to do right now...

Octavia cleared her voice and looked as surprised as I did. When I looked over at the woman, she gave me that 'your turn' look and I sighed.

"Janae you know I love you so very much or else I wouldn't be here with you right now..." I looked at her and she shook her head. "I love you with all my heart and I would love love LOVE to start a family with you but before we do that, I think you should know a few things first."

She took my hand in hers and kissed the back of them lightly. "It's okay continue." She said. I felt a knot in my throat and a tear came down my cheek. "Baby why are you crying?" She asked even though she probably already had an idea.

"Janae...while you were in jail...I- I cheated on you...with two people." I confessed. She dropped my hands and the look she had on her face made me back away from her.

"What the f*ck you just say?" She asked a little too quiet for my liking. "I cheated...Janae I love-" The sound of the slap echoed throughout the room and when I looked back up she was standing over me with tears running down her face.

"I'm so sorry baby I really am!" I said trying to grab her hand but she slapped it away. "DON'T TOUCH ME YOU DIRTY HO!" She screamed.

I started crying harder and wished I had kept it a secret. "I'm gone!" She said approaching the door but Octavia called her back.

"There's more." She said.

"What the f*ck? So you knew about this sh*t Octavia?" She screamed.

"Listen, I didn't know you guys were a couple until yesterday when ya'll called so calm down and take a seat. We are going to get through this."