To Love Again (Lesbian)

Chapter 10

Cayla's POV:

I had to get out of this house. I've been here for almost a month now and I just can't take it anymore. I feel so uncomfortable and I just feel like Quan is hiding something real major from me.

"Cay! Why is breakfast not ready yet?" Quan asked while sitting down at the table. "Well I had to feed our child first then I had to make me some coffee so I could have some energy." I replied.

He rolled his eyes and turned on the television that was on the counter facing him. I was definitely gonna visit Nae today.

I really missed that girl and I think she has calmed down a bit from my horrible confessions. I took out my phone out my pocket while waiting for the frying pan to heat up, and started looking at old pictures of me and Nae.

"What are you looking at that got you smiling so hard?" Quan asked trying to peek at the phone screen.

"Nothing really. My friend just sent me something."

"Mmmm what was it?"

"A picture of someone caught of guard...it stupid."

I placed my phone back in my pocket and placed the bacon in the pan. Just then, the door rang.

"I'll get it." I said but Quan got up quickly. "It's okay. Finish the bacon." he answered and ran to the door.

I was so caught up in deciding if I should text Nae or not before I go and pay her a visit, that I didn't even hear Gabi crying.

"Shh shh baby. Daddy will be right back." I stepped out the kitchen a little still trying to quiet down Gabi when I heard a woman's voice by the door.

"I'm going to do it once I get the chance. Thank you so much. You're helping me get what I want, and I'm helping you get what you want." the woman said.

"Thanks. I hope things work out for you. Just know that if things don't work out, I'm not giving back my prize..." Quan told the woman.

I squinted my eyes and bit my bottom lip while I watched Quan give the strange dark skinned woman a hug. Then he closed the door and I sat down in the chair with Gabi forgetting all about the bacon.

"Here. She's been crying for you." I pouted handing Gabi over. I went back to the stove and flipped the crisp bacon to the other side so it could cook. "Who was that by the door though?" I asked.

"Ehhh just some lady selling Avon or some sh*t." He shrugged. I rolled my eyes and turned off the stove with the half burnt bacon. I placed it in a plate along with the pancakes and eggs and gave it to Quan.

He started laughing and looked up at me. "What?" I asked him before I sat down.

"Why is the bacon so burnt? You know you could of heat it up in the microwave so all the oil would be gone and it wouldn't be burnt..."

"You should of told me that before. I'll be in the shower. I have some errands to run today." I told him then got ready to finally face my ex.

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I stood up in front of Nae's door, rethinking this whole visiting thing. I knocked once and there was no answer. Right when I was going to knock a second time, the door opened and there stood Nae and Octavia...hand in hand.

"What the hell are you doing here Cayla?" Nae barked with an attitude. "I came here to see how you were doing since you never picked up my calls." I mumbled still shocked at how she raised her voice.

"I'm doing great." She smiled and pulled Octavia in front of her looking like they were going to leave me here. "Please Nae. Can we talk...?" I begged.

"No and don't call me Nae."

"I'm sorry. Please Janae...I just need to talk to you for a few minutes."

Octavia whispered something in her ear and then they looked at me. "I'll leave you two alone." She placed her hand on my shoulder and looked at me one last time before she went down the stairs.

Janae rolled her eyes and motioned me to come inside. I took a seat on the couch that we made love on so many times and it brought tears to my eyes. "Janae I'm so so so sorry for hurting you. I honestly still love you and care for you so much. I just want you to please rethink-"

"Didn't you want to ask how I was doing?"

"Yes but I just wanted to-"

"I heard enough of your shitty ass apology." She said nonchalantly.

I sighed and looked around my old apartment. Everything was still in place and I noticed a picture of me and her all hugged up still on the side table.

I smiled and looked back at Janae. "You still have our first picture together, on the table." I said looking back at the picture.

"Must of forgot to throw it out. Let me do that now since you reminded me." She got up and took the picture out the frame and threw it in the garbage.

Tears started to roll down my cheeks. I couldn't take the way she was acting towards me anymore. God knows I wish I could take everything back...

"Janae...are you sleeping with Octavia?" I asked scared of the answer.

"That's none of your business. It shouldn't matter to you." She huffed getting her house keys off the table.

"It's only been a few weeks Janae. You're not like that!" I yelled.

"Listen I am a new person okay. If I want to f*ck her then that's what I'm gonna do. You have a child and a boyfriend so you shouldn't be worrying about my actions." She yelled back.

"I'M SORRY I STILL LOVE YOU JANAE! I don't even want Quan! I want you!"

"Try telling him that! It's not my fault yo ass wanted to go out there and have TWO affairs behind my back! Plus lie just so you could have a baby! I probably would of forgive you if you would of told me earlier. We could of had a family!"

The tears rolled down my face faster and I stormed out the house. She was so right. Who knows what would of happen if I told her about my pregnancy.

I ran down the stairs and went into my car so I could bawl my eyes out.

*****

Janae's POV:

Once she ran out the door I plopped back on the couch and pulled at my hair. I still love that girl. I just wish everytime I looked at her I wouldn't feel the hurt and lies.

A tear ran down my face and I got up ready to go after her and apologize but I decided against it. I had to move on. I had to move on with someone that is faithful and can actually be there for me when I need them to.

Like Octavia.

These past few weeks have been great and peaceful with no drama and I love it. Octavia and I have been hanging out so much I'm actually thinking about asking her on a date one of these days. She's also been helping me through so much sh*t I think I might be starting to have feelings for her. I just hope I don't waste all this time trying to get with her and next thing you know, she doesn't feel the same way about me.

I walked over to the garbage can and took out the picture of Cayla and I out then made sure there were no marks or stains on there. Then I placed it back in the frame and in the box where the rest of her things were. If this box ever disappeared, I would probably throw a fit.

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I'M SO SORRY! I thought I would finally be free of work but I guess that's not the case. I just have a few things to say though. Something is wrong with wattpad. I don't think everyone is getting my updates. So just make sure to check your library every weekend to see if I updated. And if you didn't vote or read Chapter 9 please do so now. The reads on the chapter and the votes don't really add up....BUT ANYWHO tell me your thoughts on this chapter. MAKE SURE TO VOTEEEEE COMMMEENNTT AND SHARE! Sorry again guys!

~Krissy :*