A little hope. (OHSHC Fan fiction) (COMPLETE)

Chapter 9

As the weeks past by quickly I began to feel at home in the host club but sadly I was going to have to choice if I stay here or go back on tour. They finally finished fixing the tour bus so we could go back on tour but in all honestly I didn't want to go back on tour. that would mean leaving my friends. I want to sing but I don't know if I want to go back on tour. Not so soon anyway. I'm still waiting for a sign from Rin to tell me what I should do.

"Kira do you think you'll be able to sing for us tomorrow?" Kyoya asked.

"Actually I was wondering if I could sing today in the host club." I said with a smile.

"Did you prepare anything good?" Kyoya asked.

"Yes. I did!" I said. 'At least i hope it's good.' I thought to myself.

"Alright, I think you will be able to sing today." Kyoya agreed. I smiled brightly. As the day came to an end I started on my way over to the host club when I was attacked by camera's.

"Miss.Tanaka, do you plan on returning to your tour?" One man asked holding a microphone.

"Do you want to stay here and forget the tour?" another asked. I didn't know what to say. Normally Miss.manager took care of the news for me.

"I don't know yet." I said quickly.

"Is there a reason you haven't left yet?" Someone in the crowd asked. I didn't know what to say. I couldn't answer the questions because I don't know the answers.

"I really must be going." I said as I dismissed myself from the group of microphones. I finally reached the host club. I walked in the host club and over to the stage.

"What took so long?" Kyoya asked.

"Sorry, I was held up." I smiled.

"Alright!" Tamaki jumped in.

"Ki-chan, do you want cake?" Honey-sempai asked.

"Of course." I smiled. I followed Honey-sempai to his table of cake. I was given a chocolate slice and I ate it.

"Thank you honey-sempai." I said. I got up and walked back over to the stage. I started to play with the wires. If I wanted to do it right I had to do my own auto.

"What song are you singing?" The twins asked in unison.

"It's a secret." I said. When I finished setting up I got off the stage and waited for Tamaki to introduce me to the guess.

"Ladies, I would like to introduce our live entertainment for today." Tamaki started. He stayed silent for a moment.

"Her name is Kira Tanaka." He finally finished. I walked out onto the stage.

"I still talk to you

Whenever I'm alone

I hear you in my prayers

Feel you in the wind that blows.

I wonder how you are

What you're doing way up there

Are you laughing or are you crying

Cause you miss us all down here.

Only god knows when

You'll smile and take my hand

When I see you again

When I see you again.

I wish I had the chance

To hold you one last time

It hurts me to know you never got to say goodbye.

You're never really gone

Your memory remains

I miss you more than words could ever help me to explain.

Only god knows when

This road I'm on will end

When I see you again.

I'll see you when the set runs out

When the song is over and the curtain falls down

I'll see you on the other side

You can show me what it's like.

Only god knows when

You'll smile and take my hand

I'll say how you been

When I see you again

I'll see you again"

I sang. I smiled as I sang. I haven't sang in so long. All at once the girls started to cheer.

"Can you sing another song?" One of the girls asked.

"I am sorry but I will not be singing anything else today. I haven't anything else prepared." I smiled at the girl.

"It's okay!" She blushed. 'This is so weird!' I thought. I jumped off the stage and walked into he change room. I can hide there for now. Once I was in the change room I started to cry. I don't know why I just did. It could be because of that blasted song. The song Rin loved so much. She would sing it when she was alone. She wanted to sing it every day. She wanted to sing it every second. She loved it. She kept singing it. That was the first song she sang in public. it was fun to play around with. 'Rin I promise to keep you living.' I thought. It was hard to let go of her. Not forget but move on. It's going to be hard but I have to at Lear try to move on. I have no choice. I love Rin but I don't have a choice. If I want to say happy I have to move on. It's something I have to do. even if its hard I have to try to get past this. She's gone but she's still everywhere. She made a big impression. Everywhere she went she left a good impression.

"Kira, are you okay?" Kaoru asked.

"Yeah why?" I asked her.

"You zoned out again." Hikaru answered.

"Sorry, I guess I was off in thought again." I laughed.

"You really shouldn't do that." Haruhi said.

"I know but I get do carried away sometimes." I said. She laughed. I gave her a hug.

"LOOK AT MY DAUGHTERS BONDING." Tamaki shouted.

"Tamaki!!!" I yelled at him in embarrassment. The twins started to laugh.

"Look she's blushing." The twins joked in unison. I kept turning brighter red.

"You guys suck." I teased. It bugs me because I know sooner or later I'm going to have to leave. I know I will and I know I have to tell them.

"Kira, are you sure you're okay?" Haruhi asked.

"Haruhi, I have something I should have told you've at the beginning." I said.

"What?" The twins asked in unison.

"I have to go back to on tour or I have to stay here. Miss. manager said I have the choose." I said.

"Have you decided what you want to do?" Hikaru asked.

"Well no. I want to stay here with my friends but I would miss the road to much to stay here." I said. I thought about it for a little longer.

"If you need help deciding we would be glad to help. Even a little." Haruhi said.

"In the end my decide would be the same. I guess I'm not quite done touring but I will stay here until the end of the year." I said. I don't know how long I could keep that promise to my friends but I had to try!!!!

A/N THE SONG I USED IS WHEN I SEE YOU AGAIN BU EMERSON DRIVE.