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Here's the tea

So

I am very confused and.... mad?

As some of you know I have a boyfriend. He's really funny and sweet and we've liked each other since 4th grade. (I'm in 7th)

BUT

Today my friend got asked out by someone I've taken a recent liking to.

I'm not trying to be that girl but I feel like I'm not really sure what I want to be anymore.

Like I don't want to be single, but I feel like my boyfriend and I just act like really good friends. We're literally 13 so there not that much more that we can do.

My main message right now is that I don't want to be single, but I don't want to be not single. I want to be able to freely like anyone but I want to be classified as someone's girlfriend.

Is it weird to like someone and be taken at the same time? Is it weird to like more than one person?

I want to know if what I'm doing or feeling is bad.

Fun fact: I've had 6 boyfriends in my life which 3 happen in 7th, 2 happened in 6th, and one happened in 2nd but that one doesn't really matter.

I feel like I'm just going through people that I like. People that I find mildly attractive and a nice person to be together with never actually end out well.

My last ex was ruined because of me. He broke up with my friend that he got together with 4 months after we broke up and he had to end it with her because he was still broken by me.

I don't want that to happen to my boyfriend but I'm feeling like I just want to be single right now. It's almost summer and I'm not going to be home for 3 weeks and the two before I'm going to be very busy.

I'm mostly mad at myself.

I feel like I'm betraying my boyfriend for liking other guys, but I feel like breaking up would be okay with them because he never reacts when I talk about my ex's or guys that I hang around all the time.

Just please tell me what you think and if you didn't get anything within that entire rant than you can just forget about it.