dear love of my life,
this is all too much for me to handle.
my feelings for you are getting stronger and stronger.
when i spoke to you today, a fire ignited in my body.
the words you spoke burnt me slowly but i enjoyed the pain.
i'm not happy with myself anymore.
i'm back to being self conscious.
hero, i still love you.
can't you see it?
you asked me today how i was doing.
i shrugged.
because i feel numb without you.
my existence is pointless without you.
if i don't have you, then i don't have me.
i've never felt so lost in my own body.
i just wanted you to hold me and tell me that everything will be okay.
all i wanted you to do was to hold me in your arms and protect me from this pain.
tomorrow, i plan to tell you about..
me hurting myself.
if i build up the courage to talk to you.
speaking to you today felt so good.
why am i running after you if you're the one who hurt me?
i don't know what to do anymore.
- josephine
