Moments Like These (A Harry Styles Fan Fiction) (Watty Awards 2012)

Chapter 36

We were walking out of the carnival now, the lights were slowly fading, and I was getting very excited to know where Harry was taking me next.

"Harry where are we going?" I said bouncing up and down,

"just calm down, it's a short walk, you'll love it" he said with a huge smile, he always did this I don't think I have ever gone on a date with him where I knew the actual spot he was taking me.

"We're getting closer love" he said, the carnival was no where to be seen at this moment, and we were walking in a huge field. Grass was everywhere, and it was so dark, defiantly different than the London sky I'm use to. Stars were out everywhere, different colors dancing in the black background.

"Alright love, this is it" I gave him a questioning look, and he just nodded,

"what's your plan Styles?" I asked suspiciously, he pointed to a pile of blankets and pillows,

"my plan is to sleep under the stars with my wonderful girlfriend" he said with a cheeky grin, I laughed and sat down besides him,

"well what are we suppose to do?" I asked sighing,

"look at the stars" he answered simply. We sat gazing at the stars, Harry intertwined are fingers fitting like a jigsaw puzzle, Harry pulled out his ipod and dock plugging in his ipod to the dock he started flipping through songs,

"found it!" he said happily, he pressed played, and 'My Love Is Like A Star' by Demi Lovato started playing,

"you are so cheesy" I said grinning up at him, he knew that I loved Demi, she was such a role model,he just didn't know why, I figure I love him, and I'm close enough to tell him.

"Harry, I really want to tell you something, I've never told you before" I said sitting on the blanket fumbling with the corners of my blanket, he looked at me with so much concern,

"What is it love?" he said taking my twitching hands in his, and starring straight into my eyes, 'My Love Is Like A Star' still playing in the background 

"well, in junior high, I was really bullied, I don't talk about it a lot, because I don't like to bring it up, I use to be really depressed, and I use to do things that I shouldn't have," I said suddenly becoming very interested in everything but Harry's eyes "and, well those things were cutting, and other thing that I had gone to therapy up until last year for" I said sheepishly,

"oh my god Jay," is all he could manage, I was still going on though, I was ashamed of my past, it was something I tried to forget, even though I knew I shouldn't

"There's more" I said sighing, "I figured out in therapy that I am bipolar, and that's why I had all these problems, along with the bullying, that's why I feel for Demi so much, we practically have the same story" he was so surprised, no one would ever think that I was bipolar, or self harmed, but I did and it was in the past for a reason.

**Harry's POV**

When those words came out of Jaycee's pink lips I wanted to go and find who ever those kids were and set them straight, why would anyone ever want to hurt Jay, she was so perfect in so many ways. I never thought that she would self harm, or that she would be bipolar, but I guess she did go through stages where she would be super excited and hyper all the time, which were her manic stages, and then she went through he depression stages "I wish you would have told me sooner, I could be helping you through all of this" I said looking at her with sad eyes

"I was ashamed, I didn't want you to treat me different, and be overly nice to me, that's what has happened with everyone that knows besides Niall" she said looking down at her hands, I wrapped my arms tight around her and fell back onto the pillows,