Moments Like These (A Harry Styles Fan Fiction) (Watty Awards 2012)

Chapter 48

I quickly pulled away from Zayn's grasp jumping off the bed and giving him a shocked look as I stood there, he sat frozen with a look of regret on his face "Zayn what was that?" I snapped.

He looked at me in the eyes and shrugged "You have Aph, and I have Harry" I snapped once again, making Zayn jump a little

"It was a mistake Jay, it was just the moment I wasn't thinking, we don't need to freak out" he said making my blood boil

"We shouldn't freak out!" I screeched, "we are in relationships, we love people, well I do, Harry is my everything, I'm not going to throw that away" I said whispering the last part

"Jaycee, I'm sorry it was just I was in the moment, I love Aph, but you will always be my first love and those feelings just get to me sometimes" he said dropping the whole 'I don't care' act and looking at his hands

"why don't we just not tell anyone" I sigh already feeling the guilt rush through my body, he slowly nod, with that I walk  out and go back to Harry and my room crawling in bed, guilt is running through every inch of my body, I feel like throwing up, I can not believe I just did that to Harry

"Wake up princess we need to head to rehearsals" Harry's raspy morning voice spoke into my ear, I groaned and sat up, then it hit me, last night, Zayn kissed me, and I kissed back.

"I woke up last night and you weren't there" Harry pouted at me, making me feel the guilt flood through my brain

"I went to Zayns room to talk" I said with a shrug, he then smiled at me and pecked my cheek

"oh, have a good talk?" he said smiling down at me, I gave a slight nod and then stood up and walked into the bathroom

"going to take a shower, be out in a minute" I said as I shut the door and slid down it I don't know how I'm going to keep this from him, I can't, but I have to he would never understand, he would never believe me.

Tugging at my hair and letting out a groan I stood up and stripped out of my pajamas letting the steamy water run over me. Should I tell him, or should I just hold it inside, either way I'm going to lose a part of me, with out telling him the guilt will eat away, but if I tell him then I'll lose him which will be a lot worse.

Shutting off the water I stepped out wrapping the towel around my small figure and running my hand through my wet hair, sighing I pulled on my high waisted shorts and blue crop top, it was warm in Kansas City, which I was thankful for, it was actually scorching since it was summer, I never thought it could get this hot and sunny.

"Hi" I smiled as I stepped out of the bathroom

"hello beautiful" Harry said wrapping his arms around me and swaying a bit "I'm all ready, wanna go? Everyone else left about ten minutes ago" Harry said pulling away and grabbing the keys to one of the rental cars, I nodded and took the offered hand he held out to me and followed him towards the black car.

We were now at the rehearsals, I was sitting in the front row as the boys had sound check, Zayn kept staring at me and I would give him a small glare telling him to keep his mouth shut, and then he would roll his eyes and mouth an 'I know' Nicole was sitting next to me and she caught me once and gave me a confused look.

"What's that?" she said as I glared at Zayn again

"Nothing, I don't know what you're talking about' I said grumpily

"I know when you're upset, and hiding something" she pointed out, I stood up grabbing Nicole's arm and dragging her with me

"We're going to the bathroom" I called as I pushed the doors open and headed to the bathroom