Moments Like These (A Harry Styles Fan Fiction) (Watty Awards 2012)

Chapter 50

**Authors Note**

keep 'Moments' playing the whole time you read this chapter. I mean it(;

**Harry's POV**

Stumbling through the hallways, almost drunk on shock, water falling from my tears, I knew what I was looking for, I knew where I was going, running around the hospital earning dirty looks from people, I came across what I was looking for. Sitting right in front of me was the door with the words 'roof' written on it in block letters.

Slowly opening the door and taking in a breathe, I started to climb the four flights it took to get to the top, each stair letting another tear and sob escape.

She was really gone, gone forever, not here, dead, gone.

These words kept ringing through my head, like a knife to the heart. 'She's never coming back and it's because of you Harry' I screamed at myself, letting more tears escape

"You caused the death of the girl you love more than anything!" I said stopping and leaning my forehead against the cold cement wall, looking down at my feet

"She would still be here with you if you would have just listened" I whispered to myself, taking my head off of the wall I began to let each foot fall to the next stair, causing a loud 'thump' to bounce around the walls of the hallway.

Now running up the stairs, passing each floor on my way, I burst through the door, the warm summer air hitting my face, slowly making my way to the edge, memories start flashing through my mind.

When I first met Jaycee, how beautiful she looked, those same blue eyes that I had just watched disappear shining, that same blonde curly hair I had just seen go flat, that same smile that I had seen disappear only moments ago.

How I winked at her making her blush and giggle, how grown up she looked when she was only 16.

The first night I spent at Niall's, seeing Jaycee walk down in her shorts and tank top, looking gorgeous. When we were at Nandos that first day we got back and how she got jealous when I went back with the waitress.

How her giggles filled my mind, those sweet giggles that were so beautiful now haunting me. Stepping up on the ledge I look over slightly seeing the late night traffic rushing by, the people rushing around, couples holding hands.

Suddenly the image of me and Jaycee sitting on her bed teasing each other popped into mind, That's when I confessed my feelings to her, they were so much stronger than what I told her they were, but she was still scared to let her walls fall down.

Our first date ran through my mind, the little gazebo hidden in the woods, the lights leading up, the smile being brighter than any of them.

When her lips met mine for the first time after making her mine in front of the whole crowd, the smile that broke onto her perfect pink lips when I uttered the words.

How she got a long so well with my family, how they loved her. My mum said she was the one. I knew she was that was all destroyed now, because of me.

When she got kidnapped by Kevin, how I felt like my world was crashing down, how I didn't know if she was going to make it, how I spent those whole three days she was gone, searching and crying, and crying and searching.

When I confessed I loved her, hearing her say those words back giving me those butterflies I always felt around her.

I felt one foot dangle over the edge, almost losing balance, but steadying myself, more memories flashing through my mind.

When Hope had tried to ruin Jaycee and I's relationship because she wanted me, and how we still got throught that and promised nothing would ever separate us.

How Mark came bursting in not so many days ago, and beat Jaycee I didn't even have to think before I jumped on him, because Jaycee was my world. Letting my foot slip a little farther.

suddenly I felt myself jump, closing my eyes, I saw me getting on one knee giving Jaycee her promise ring, telling her I would marry her one day, making love to her for the first time, that feeling better than any feeling I have ever felt.

as I neared the ground Jaycee's crystal icy blue eyes shot through my head, her pale skin that held that breath taking smile, that curly blonde hair that was always perfect, her laugh filling my ears.

They say when you are about to die, your whole life flashes through your head, everything you wish you would have done, those moments you should have taken, everything that made you happy, the ironic thing was nothing but Jaycee was running through my head, she was my life, my everything, my soul.

I was feet from the ground now, nearing closer and closer, still seeing that same smile in my mind, and hearing that same laugh that was more beautiful than music. I hit the ground, hearing in the distance Louis' voice screaming my name, telling me to stop, but I wasn't going to.Not if I had a chance to see Jaycee.

Suddenly everything was clear, like I was still alive, I was dressed in a suit, and standing on a beach, my hair getting blown in the wind, the waves kissing the shore, and the sun setting in the distance.

Walking down a long red carpet came Jaycee, her long blonde hair trailing down her back in those perfect curls, her vale resting in it while flowers littered everywhere, falling from the sky almost like magic. On her arm a man was linked with her, wrinkled and old, but not having a hard time, a smile on his face as he looked up to my beautiful Jaycee.

A long dress was on her, tight around the top with millions of sparkling diamonds shining in the late days sun, poofing out at the waist, making her look like a princess, It trailed behind her, carried by two girls dressed in all white with a heavenly glow to their faces.

That's when I looked up into Jaycee's face, her eyes were bright again, her face glowing more than I have ever seen, almost like it was shining, her smile was evident showing her perfect teeth, she came closer and closer to me smiling wider and wider. She had no make up on, but still looked like an angel, she stepped up onto the alter where I was standing, and kissed the old man on the cheek

"I love you papa" she whispered as she pulled away from him. In her hand instead of holding flowers, she held the pink note that I had left her sitting on the bed, the one that read 'in a matter of moments'

She smiled up at me, pulling me close, crashing our lips together, I couldn't feel them, they were more like air, invisible and precious, something I couldn't live with out, still sending shocks and shivers through out my body, pulling away she smiled at me, and whispered into my ear the last words I would ever need to hear

"Lets have this moment for life."

*Fin.*

**Authors Note PLEASE READ EXPLAINS EVERYTHING**

That was it, I'm sorry, I know that you are going to all hate me but let me explain! I started this book in August, I planned the end out first, and what gave me this idea was the song 'Moments' obviously by One Direction. I am happy with this ending, I love it actually if you aren't happy with it, I'm truly sorry but my job as a writer isn't to make everyone happy and fit to what my peers want, it's to make myself happy with my own work. In 'Moments' for any of you that don't know it's about a girl who dies. Her boyfriend having so much love for her and can't live with out her decides the only way out is to commit suicide. I know this is a horrible thing! But they did get their happy ever after not in the cliche way I did this though so that you guys wouldn't KILL me! the place that Harry and Jaycee are getting 'married' is heaven, and the man walking her is her great grandpa the little girls behind her are angels, and that's what I want is to be original! so I'm sorry to any of you that hate me now, but please don't send me death threats, this book took me so long to write, I poured my heart and soul out into it, and if I could get a tear to fall then I did what I wanted. I love you guys think you to everyone that has bean there reading since I first updated chapter one(: I'm crying as I write this, not only because of my ending but because of this book.Thank you for reading<3

~Jamie xx