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Nagising ako sa mabigat na brasong nakapatong sa ibabaw ng dibdib ko. I knew exactly who it is when I saw the veins around it. Hindi ako bumangon at hinayaang nakahiga habang pinagmamasdan ang payapang natutulog na si Troy.
He really looks harmless when sleeping, those lashes of him that are enough to be satisfied by the view of it.
"Good mowmmming..." he groaned as he blinked an eye.
Napaiwas ako ng tingin. He's topless and he did not realize how he used me as his comforter.
"Good morning." Marahan akong bumangon kahit na hindi natanggal ang kanyang mabigat na braso sa aking tiyan.
"Nakatulog ka ba ng maayos?" Nakahiga pa rin siya habang hinahaplos ang aking tiyan. He traced circular lines around my stomach, medyo nakiliti ako sa kanyang ginagawa.
"Yeah, how about you?"
Damang-dama ko ang lamig ng temperatura sa paligid. But I'm starting to feel warm because of this guy beside me.
"I will be, as long as you're in my arms."
Tinulak ko ang pisngi niya nang akmang bumangon at hulihin ang labi ko para makahalik.
"Ang aga pa para diyan, Troy." sumimangot siya na parang batang naagawan ng hotdog.
"Bakit, dapat ba sa gabi lang maaaring humalik? I can kiss you whenever I want because you're mine, Symon. You can't say no to something that will benefit us both."
I was amazed by his conclusion. Parang siya lang naman ang nakaka-benefit sa mga galawang ganoon. Knowing boys and their testosterones. I just realized na kasali nga rin pala ako doon.
"I will take a shower first, bahala ka kung anong gusto mong gawin diyan." Tumayo ako at saka nanguha ng extra towel sa cabinet.
"I still don't understand why you're so detached of me. Is there something wrong with me? Am I too clingy?" Aniya habang pinapanood akong kumuha ng mga toiletries.
You're not just clingy, you are extremely clingy Troy.
"There's nothing wrong with you, Troy."
Because everything is wrong with me. I'm still taming the feelings that I have for him. It's growing bigger and stronger that I might blow up if I don't keep it to myself.
"Then why are you still captive?"
Nagulat ako nang nasa likuran ko na pala siya kung kaya't napaharap ako. He pinned me through the door of the cabinet.
"The Symon that I knew before is not like this, confined and pushy. You were head over heels with me before, did you.. did you fall out of love with me?" May hinanakit sa tanong na iyon base sa tono ng kanyang boses.
Hindi ako nakasagot agad. I'm just thinking. Inurong ko ang dila sa kadahilanang nahihiya ako. Of course, I did not fall out of love. It even grew. And now I can't stand to face him because of all the bullshit reasons I made up just to fake all the feelings I had for him.
I think not everyone can relate to what I'm saying. Maybe those who gave their partners a second chance. There's still this feeling na baka muling masira, muling magloko ang tadhana, muling pagpapakatanga. Is second chance worth trying for?
"Hindi mo na ako mahal.." he concluded once again with such lonesome face that I can't bear with anymore.
"Of course, I fucking do." I answered without thinking.
"You do? Bakit ako maniniwala sa'yo?" humalukipkip siya.
Hindi ko alam kung talagang nasasaktan siya o baka pinipilit niya lang akong palayain ang sarili.
BINABASA MO ANG
Masked Pleasure (MM) ✔
RomanceSimon, haunted by a turbulent upbringing and a profound sense of abandonment, finds solace in his rebellious nature. However, his path takes an unexpected turn when he crosses paths with Troy, a charismatic yet troubled individual grappling with the...
