Your Not Who I Thought You Was (A Conor Maynard Fan Fic)

Chapter 29

-THE NEXT DAY-

EMILYS POV

I lay in bed as I look at the ceiling trying to find comfort in the silence, that I am laying in

I am currently laying on my bed willing myself to get up

After I left the party, I went back to the flat and I spend time packing a bag of clothes before in the early hours of the morning, I drove from the flat back to my parents house

I couldn't stand being in the flat anymore

Even though I felt really bad for waking my parents up in the early hours of the morning

I needed someone to cry to

Me and my mum sat on the sofa with a cup of tea and I had a cry to her

She told me that she could see my heart was breaking as I told her what I had said to Conor about not seeing Penelope again

But me and my mum had a conversation that got me thinking

-FLASHBACK-

Me and my mum are currently sat on the sofa with cups of tea in our hands

"I know it's upsetting Em, I can practically see your heartbreaking" she tells me softly

I sigh as I look down

"I just can't go through having my daughter being hurt and upset by Conor because he can't get his act together, that is why I told him that if he kept doing it, that I wouldn't allow him to see Penelope again" I explain to her

My mum sighs

"Em, are you sure that is wise? Like how would you implement that? Would you go through the courts and get a court order against him? Would you move out of the flat? What?" she questions

I sigh not really knowing how to respond to that

"I don't know how I would go about it, I don't want to have to take Penelope away from Conor but he is really pushing me towards it" I explain to her as I feel a tear slip down my cheek

I never thought as a single mum, I would be in this position

I wish Conor wasn't being suck a prick about it

I wish he understood how I felt about everything because if he listened to me and actually cared about how I felt about everything, then maybe he would stay around for longer

-END OF FLASHBACK-

I guess my mum is right to question how I would keep Conor from seeing Penelope

I really don't know how I would do it but I am getting to the point where I just don't want to have any contact with Conor myself

But I know that deep down inside me, I would go to back to him in a heartbeat and I feel stupid for that

Because I know that he will just hurt me again

I suddenly hear crying coming from Penelope's bed, that is set up in my room

I get off the bed and I go over her crib before I lift her into my arms

"It's ok Penny, mummy's here" I say as I bounce her in my arms

"Let's change your nappy and gets some food inside that little tummy of yours" I say as I tickle her stomach before she lets out a loud giggle

I smile as I get the changing mat out from under my bed and I lay it flat on my bed before I lay Penelope down on it