The Outsiders Imagines

Dally (Part 3)

It Will Rain by Bruno Mars

Dally's pov:
The next week and half went something like this: I'd go to the Curtis house where I knew Yn was staying. Knock on the door and wait. Darry would answer it. I'd ask to see her, he'd say no. I would be able to see her either walking around behind him or sitting on the couch with red puffy eyes from crying.
But today was different.
I knocked on the door ready for the same transaction as the days before.
"Can I please talk to her?" I'd pleaded.
"No. How many times do I need to tell you that she doesn't want to spea-" He was cut offf.
"Let me talk to him for a minute." Her voice was so quiet and soft.
He stoped for a moment and looked at her "Okay, we're right here if you need us." Darry said before stepping aside to let her take his original position in the door way.
"What do you want?" She said slightly hostile, I don't blame her.
"Come back. I messed up. It didn't mean anything I promise. Please come back." I pleaded with her.
"How many times did it happen?" She asked.
"What?" I asked.
"How many times did you and her get together? Buck said it looks like she's done this a few times before. So how many times did it happen?" She asked as tears formed in her eyes but didn't fall.
"It was one time I swear. She's always leading guys up there to hook up, but it was the first time she ever got me up there. Sure she's tried before but I always pushed her away." I explained.
"What was different this time then?" She snapped.
"I was pretty drunk. I was stressed about our anniversary and I couldn't help myself I kept drinking." I explained further.
"So you're blaming our relationship for you cheating? That's real rich Dallas." She said turning and walking back inside. The screen door snapped shut behind her.
"Wait Yn!" I said and she hesitated before looking back to me.
"Please don't leave me." I said.
She shook her head, "I didn't leave you Dally, you left me." She shut the storm door forcefully, leaving me alone. 
If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.
I walked back to my room at Buck's place completely numb. We were over. Three years of my life was just thrown out by my own doing. I didn't know what to do so I just went straight to my bed and laid down.
I don't know how to process this all. The past three years of my life have been with Yn, and now just to have her gone, I don't remember my life before her even. The worst part is she's not even really gone, she's only a couple miles away if that, yet she seems so far away.
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
Ooh so keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin' out the door.
'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain
I eventually ended up just falling asleep. When I woke up that next morning it was pouring down rain. I got up from my bed and as I did I bumped the bedside table. A pice of paper fell of it. When I picked it up I was brought to my knees. It was the letter Yn had written me. The picture from the ultrasound was still with it. In that moment I made decision that I had never really made on my own. I decided to pray. I've never really been super religious, Yn was more religious than me but not a whole lot more. We'd go to church on Easter Sunday and for Christmas. Anytime we had an important dinner at the Curtis house we'd all pray before we ate, just little things like. The only other time I'd seen Yn pray was when her aunt died. Her aunt wasn't even really related to her in any real way. She just found Yn living on the streets of New York and took her under her wing and showed her how life on the street works. Her name was Elaine, I only met her a few times while me and Yn were together. She reminded me a lot of Yn, and I could tell that's where she got her attitude from. She ended up getting really sick about a year after me and Yn first got together. Then she kept getting worse. She died before our second year anniversary. When Yn got a phone call from the hospital her whole world fell apart. She locked herself in our room. When I was finally able to pick the lock I found her on her knees and face down on the mattress. I could here her mumbling, "Please, God, I'd give anything to have her back, please." I didn't really know what to do so I just held her as she cried and eventually fell asleep.
This felt just like that. I would sacrifice anything to have her back by my side. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes before I began, "Look man, I don't really know how this whole thing really should go but I'm doing my best. I know I messed up here, I know it's all my fault but please give me a second chance, this is so much more than just a relationship, it's a family that I messed up. I need to fix this but I can't, not on my own, that's why I'm asking you. Please, I'd give up anything, or do anything to have her back. I'd even walk freely into the slammer if it meant she'd be waiting for me when I got out. Please. Please."
I got up and sat at the desk Yn had pushed up against the window. I watched as the rain poured from the sky. Usually me and Yn would just lay in bed on days like this but I can't do that any more.
I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Ooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Ooh but little darlin' watch me change their minds
Yea for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine
I know that I am not gang's favorite right now. I don't blame. I hurt Yn, the one we all care so much for. We were one big family and if any one messed with our family we'd make sure they learned their lesson. If it was any other guy who did this to Yn, I'd be with the gang protecting her and not letting him anywhere near her. But now I'm the one who's getting a lesson. A lesson on how a single stupid decision can screw up everything you've ever cared about.
I don't how but I need to prove that I am sorry about what I did. I need Yn in my life. It's up to me to fix this, no matter how much it'll hurt me it'll be nothing compared to what Yn has had to go through.
I eventually got up and went back to bed. I didn't even bother to eat anything. The next morning I woke up and it was still raining. It seemed to be heavier than it was the day before. Once again, I stayed locked in my room again. Then the same thing the next day when it was still raining. I didn't even know Tulsa could get so much rain. Buck eventually started to worry about me and made me eat something.
Don't you say, goodbye
Don't you say, goodbye
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right
'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain
While laying in bed for the fourth day, I heard the phone ring down stairs over the sound of the rain and then it stop. Either Buck answered it, or he let the machine get it. I grabbed the ultrasound picture and just stared at it. Man, this kid wasn't even here and it's already gone through so much. I was so caught up in my own thoughts I didn't notice that I had started to cry. I zoned out just looking the picture of my and Yn baby.
It was late when I finally came to my senses. I looked out the window and saw it had finally stopped raining. On one hand that was good but I was honestly sad because now I had no one to cry along with. I also saw a truck parked outside that wasn't mine or Buck's. I didn't think he was having a party tonight. No one was on the car so they must be inside already. I walked down the stairs and could hear Buck talking to some one, it sounded like Darry. I crept down the stairs where I could hear the conversation fairly clearly but couldn't really see them. I could just see the side Darry but that's all.
"Thanks man, we appreciate it. This was really taking a toll on her and the rest of the boys." Darry said, he had to of been talking about Yn.
"It's no problem, we both know how hot headed the two of them can be." Buck said.
"Hey, that's rude!" A third voice interjected, it was Yn.
"No kid, the word you're looking for is true, not rude." Darry said, I could tell he had that look on his face that he always has when he picks on Pony or Yn.
"Doesn't mean you have to say it." She said back. They all laughed for a moment before awkward silence set in. I almost used this moment to make myself known, but Buck started talking before I could.
"You know, Dally ain't to hot right now. I made him eat something this morning but even that was a battle, he stays locked up in his room. And I never tell him this, but these walls here are thin and I've heard him crying, even over that rain we were getting." Buck said. I could tell he was worried.
I always turn to being tough when I'm in a situation I don't like, and that's exactly what I did. I walked down the rest of the steps and into the room they were all in.
"So you heard me crying?" I said trying to stair daggers at Buck.
"You don't look so tough with red puffy eyes, Dal." Yn voice made me turn to her and my face fell.
I could tell she's spent her past few days similar to how I spent mine. My eyes started to water and I couldn't even help the tears that began to fall. Yn stepped closer to me and wiped my eyes saying, "Stop crying," then she wrapped her arms around my neck, "it's not tuff." She finished, her comment made me laugh a little as I hugged her.
"Please don't go." I whispered in her ear.
"I'm not, Buck told us everything I needed to know. I'm sorry I over reacted." She said pulling back. 
I held onto her hips and shook my head, "No, you have nothing to apologize for. You didn't do anything wrong, it was me I should have never done that. And I swear to you, I'll never do it again."
"Okay. I'm going to hold you to that, because now this is so much bigger than us two." She said smiling at the mention of our baby which caused me to do the same. Darry also have a slight smile before showing himself out while Buck stood there confused.
"Let's go upstairs." I said and she nodded then allowed me to lead her up.
We got to our room and sat on the bed. We talked about anything and everything, just like nothing had ever happened. That's what I loved about us, even when we have a huge fall out like this, we're able to bounce back so quickly.
"I really thought the rain was never going to stop." I said as we got ready for bed. She laughed then said, "The universe was just mocking how you felt. Because when I'm not here you're just like a rain cloud." She teased. I rolled my eyes and laughed as we laid down. "Yeah, sure. Good night doll, love you." I said and kissed her good night. "Good night, Dal."

I promised that this one would be longer. I'm not sure how long I'll continue this but there will definitely be a part 4.