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18: Irrationaly Upset

Why?

Why did he kiss me?

He was drunk. He didn't know what he was doing.

Yeah that's it. He was probably horny and drunk and that's why he kissed me. He didn't know any better.

He probably won't even remember it happened.

Besides I have more important things to worry about.

Like Ayla. And I have work this afternoon too.

I walked down to the kitchen, and was greeted by Case.

"Did you just wake up?" He raised his brows.

"Yeah." I muttered throwing my hair up in a messy bun.

"It's twelve-thirty."

"I know." I stated dryly as I grabbed some strawberries and raspberries from the fridge.

"How late were you up last night?" I knew he was concerned for me, but I wasn't in the mood for his interrogations.

"Late."

I put some yogurt, and fruits in the blender. I pressed blend, so he couldn't ask me anymore questions.

I poured the drink in a cup, and headed back up the stairs.

I really didn't want to see Caiden today.

Well I did want to see him.

But I didn't.

He made things really awkward.

I sipped the delicious drink, and stared at my wall.

Pinching the bridge of my nose I sigh heavily.

He lives in the same house as me. I'm going to have to face him eventually.

But I just don't wanna today.

I quickly finished my breakfast before running down the stairs and washing my dishes and running back up the stairs.

I decided that I needed a long shower.

You know, those kinds of showers where you just stand there a do absolutely nothing for two hours?

Yeah I need one of those.

Turning on the water, I stripped out of my clothes and jumped in the shower.

The water was burning hot. Just how I liked it.

I closed my eyes to think. But all I saw Caiden's face.

The look of disappointment and the hurt that flashed in his eyes when I ran away from him.

God there's no way he was upset when I ran away after we kissed.

My heart hurt at the thought of making him upset.

Shaking my head I shifted my thoughts to Ayla.

If she tell her parents and they kick her out, where is she going to stay? I mean I'd let her stay at my house, but she'd need to find a permanent place.

And there's a very good chance that Kade isn't going to be the happiest when he finds out either.

I'm just surprised that Kassie hasn't beaten the shit out of him for messing around with her best friend.

I can't imagine what it'd be like to have a kid now. Poor Ayla.

As I washed my hair, my thoughts shifted again.

This time to Kent.

Why hadn't I felt bad when I made out with that Liam guy?

Why wasn't I mourning the loss of our relationship?