✨thoughts✨

understanding

I understand now.
I understand why I'm here.
I am supposed to die.
That's why I was created, to be hated.
I'm afraid
I'm scared
I need help. But the only one who can fix it is the one who caused it.
I miss them.
The one I used to call my love
The one that used to love me

But I understand now
I understand why they don't anymore
I understand why they are mad at me
Because I hurt them.

Everyone asks me why I leave so many people.

It's because I'm scared
I'm scared of love
I'm scared that one day they'll leave me.

And they will.
I'm just not worth it.
I mean im..

No one..
compared to her.

I'm sad because they don't love me
They hate me
I want them back.
I want their ocean blue eyes
I want the puppy dog eyes
I want my shoulder to cry on back
I want their tan
I want them
So
Bad

Can you help me?

please...

I just want to go away
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Will someone take me away?

Side note: I wrote this in 2017. After a breakup that I didn't want. But oddly I like this poem.