✨thoughts✨

Fading Away

This is a song I wrote and can sing. It's my baby, I love it. I wrote it when I was in love with this one boy. He is perfect to this day. But I hurt him. He doesn't know this is about him. I'm sorry.

The light falls upon us, and shines brighter on you.
But when I look closer, I see you fading away.

You look at me,  softly, as you fade

I reach out to you and you touch my hand, then I started fading to gray.

I still miss you

You pushed me away
With every gesture I failed to stay
It scares me more to hear you say I never wanted you anyway.

I go to you to see how you are, you're happy without me.  
It hurts but you don't see I can't be happy.
You look at me I feel your presence on me
I run away, fastly, no longer wanted to stay.

I still miss you

You pushed me away
With every gesture I failed to stay

It scares me more to hear you say I never wanted you anyway.

Broken glass of a shattered past
Bloody memories
Kisses of blades
Knives are held
Guns are loaded
I take the pills and fill the dosage.

I still miss you

You pushed me away
With every gesture I failed to stay

It scares me more to hear you say I never wanted you to fade away.

Fade away, I'm fading away
Fading to gray

Yes, I know its pretty sad. But it helped me cope with losing him to my own stupid words. He didnt talk to me for 8 months after I left. He spread stuff about me and hurt me. This is words i couldn't say to him.