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10: a punishment.
the next day i had another english class, boring and disturbing because dean and jinhee was here again. but something was odd because i didn't really felt that jealousy anymore, for some reason and i don't know why, i would rather not know not it, i just really want this to continue, that i don't feel it anymore.
"miss ryu can i have a moment with you?" mr suh smiled at me, tapping his shoe and stood by the opened door.
i nervously licked my lips and nodded. "yes mr suh." i began to walk towards him as he exited the class, i had to follow him. when we were outside, he let out a small scoff-laugh and looked down at me.
he's very tall.
"i heard from the guard, who's guarding the gates that he had spotted you and jeno leaving the school. am i correct?" he raised an eyebrow as i stood, trembling while playing with the end of jeno's hoodie. speaking of his hoodie, i immediately washed it yesterday and sprayed my own perfume on. i don't wanna smell like jieun!
i knew i couldn't lie. "yes mr suh, i'm terribly sorry." i bit my lip and let my eyes stare on the floor. "i promise it won't happen again!" i vowed and made sure mr suh believed, but he didn't. "don't make promises that you can't keep."
his words made me look up, my mouth slightly ajar. "w-what do you mean?" i cooed and was quite offended at what he said.
he commenced to flash a smile and laugh, nearly unnatural for a teacher to act especially at this situation. he placed his heavy palm on my shoulder and chortled.
"ah, please when i was at your age, i use to sneak out too. you can't help yourself to stop sneaking out, especially with a special person." mr suh winked which made me cluelessly wrinkle my forehead.
"what?" i continued to question and was very weirded out at what mr suh was speaking about.
he sighed and smiled. "what i mean is that i use to sneak out with my girl too, like you and your boyfriend jeno."
i felt my body froze. i looked at him with wide eyes and knitted eyebrows, not really expecting those words that came out of his mouth. i felt my cheeks burning and turning into a scarlet color as i nervously chuckled and shook my head instantly. "no mr suh you have misunderstood-"
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"ah!" harvey squealed like a small girl once i entered the attic with a duster on my hand. "jesus nana you scared the shit out of me!" he walked towards me and hit me with his duster. "ah! that's rude!" i hit him back as we began to run after each other, but finally we decided to stop.
"what are you doing here?" i asked. "me, renjun and mirae were talking too much in class and the teacher got pissed." he briefly explained as i chuckled. "renjun and mirae are out the playground, they're cleaning the nature while i'm here stuck with haechan"
"what are you doing here?" haechan suddenly appeared from the dark with mark beside him. "ohhh okay why is everyone in trouble in the DNYL club?" i asked and felt kind of scared.
"except the youngsters, they behave better than us." mark giggled which made haechan smile like an idiot. "you're so cute~" the younger one mumbled as harvey raised an eyebrow. "hey mark, didn't you say you were suppose to clean the basement?"
"oh yeah, yikes sorry i just needed to tell haechan something important." mark informed and began to walk towards the exit. "i feel bad for leaving jeno down there alone." mark whispered to himself and scratched his head.
"wait! what? what's jeno doing down there?" i asked and walked to mark more near. "he told me he skipped class yesterday that's why."
what came out of mark's mouth made me smile ridiculously. "oh okay." i turned around and commenced to clean, it's just kinda funny the fact that we are now both in trouble but i don't regret doing it, it was actually extremely fun.
jeno makes me feel very happy, loved and joyful. i like being with him, it shows how DNYL is working for me. maybe i found someone who adores me a lot, perhaps as a friend and now i just feel happy because he's making me slowly forget about dean. our friendship is strong and i didn't really realize that before. i remember how we only used to smile and small talk with each other. it's crazy how now we know each other completely different, you have to know me first before you get to see the real me. i'm happy me and jeno get to share it together, showing the real us.
"why are you smiling like you just kissed dean?" that voice belonged to haechan.
my eyes widened and connected with his. i was shock about his sudden appearance, but more shocked when he spoke out those words.
"wah? how did you know?" i asked and nervously watch him giggle. "mirae told me."
my mouth formed into scowl. "uh that jerk, why would she say that." i mumbled and continued to clean the dusty desk that was right in front of me. "where's harvey by the way?" i looked around and couldn't spot him anywhere.
"he wanted to check if mirae is doing fine." he said and fumbled with the duster. "ohh... okay."
haechan sighed and stopped cleaning. "hey can i ask why you joined DNYL?" his question made me look at him. "yeah sure... because i'm heartbroken and feel down with all the unrequited love... with dean." i gave him a quick explanation as he gave me a nod and sighed. "oh okay."
i raised an eyebrow and found it odd that he was acting like this. "what about you?" i asked, trying to look like i was paying more attention at cleaning even though i was fully engrossed at him.
he licked his lip and flashed a weak smile. "i'm confused..."
"you're confused about what? confused about why you joined the club?" i gave a guess but he shook his head, a signal that i was wrong, my guess was wrong.
"about myself." his answer wasn't good enough, i still couldn't understand what he was saying or maybe i am just really dumb. "you're confused about yourself? your what? your love life?" i kept on guessing but will always end up guessing wrong.
"i'm confused if i'm actually attracted to the same gender as me."
"oh." i said and pursed my lips.
"i'm scared." his words made my heart break, seeing him like this was very infrequent. i only see the sassy hyuck or the full-sun. i like both but please not this.
i placed the duster on the table and approached him. "don't be haechan. don't be afraid. i know it's maybe hard to show it, but it takes time so it's extremely okay. don't think about what others would think, you shouldn't care. love is love, if you love someone who is the same gender as you," i paused and immediately thought of mark, maybe he's the one. "don't be scared to tell them."
i pulled him in an embrace as he hugged me back, shutting his eyes and sighing. "it's okay, we are here to help you~" i cooed.
note: yeah in this story, hyuck is bi and mark and him :') okay i'm not gonna spoil more sooo bye.
