healer with a broken heart || jaeyong

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trigger warning: suicide and panic attack! ⚠️

song of the chapter:
do i wanna know~ kuma remix

"i thought you'd be up here." his voice drew taeyong out of his thoughts.

taeyong didn't have to look to recognize the voice that interrupted him. he stared up at the night sky, looking at the stars that were uncomfortably peaceful. unlike him, who felt as if he was about to explode at every breathing moment. jaehyun's shoes clicked on the concrete as he stepped closer to taeyong.

he positioned himself behind taeyong, his heart drumming between his shoulder blades. jaehyun placed his head in the crook of taeyong's neck, inhaling his intoxicating scent. he wrapped his long around taeyong who immediately sank into his embrace, allowing
himself the guilty pleasure of being held by someone who he couldn't be with.

and jaehyun couldn't get enough of taeyong's ever.

everything about him pulled jaehyun in. the way his hair smelled like fresh jeju mandarins and the way his tongue would peak out of his lips when he was studying.

"i miss you." taeyong finally broke down, tears flowing down his face.

"shh, it's okay. i'm right here." jaehyun spun him around, until their lips are centimeters away.

"except you're not and it's not okay! because you're here right now but as soon as this is over, you'll be going home to your wife. and what happens to me?" taeyong cried, pushing jaehyun off of him.

jaehyun wrapped taeyong tightly, feeling an enormous amount of guilt course their his veins.

"then take me home, with you, where i belong." jaehyun responded, lips brushing against his.

taeyong doesn't respond but pulls him into his lips instead. their lips molded into each other's, sending an electric through their bodies. jaehyun softly but desperately brushed his tongue against taeyong who reciprocated the same intensity. taeyong opened his mouth wider, to accept more of jaehyun. his teeth, slightly bitting against jaehyun's bottom lip at moments.

taeyong's fingers were interlaced in his hair, gently twirling the brown strands. jaehyun dug his fingers into taeyong's hips that back him up against the ledge of the hospital roof. taeyong pulled away softly, sparkling eyes looking up at jaehyun.

"what does this mean?" taeyong asked, drawing them back to reality.

"it means that i'm in love with you, lee taeyong. and, i have been since the moment that i saw you drinking overpriced tequila shots at that cheap bar. i'm sorry that i lied, but i'm not sorry for falling in love with you." jaehyun smiled as he stared into his glimmering puppy eyes.

jaehyun picked up taeyong's small body, placing him into the ledge, standing in between his thighs. his head laying against taeyong's chest, feeling his heart beat. taeyong stroked his hair as jaehyun cuddled up against him.

suddenly, he had the overwhelming feeling to just fall back and feel the wind rush against him as he plummeted stories onto the buzzing traffic below them.