i'm in my feelings everyone i'm sorry.
here's a sad imagine.
"you can't just ignore the situation, ethan." i said, frustration apparent within my voice.
"did you just plan on ghosting me? i don't understand." i said, following up my previous statement.
he sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.
i shook my head as i looked out the window of the car.
i watched as small raindrops began to fall onto the side of the glass.
"i knew it." i said, almost laughing at how stupid i felt in that moment.
"huh?" he mumbled, as he shrugged his shoulders.
"i knew that you were gone once i realized that i was the only one contributing to our conversations."
i watched as he furrowed his brows.
"ethan, i started to be the only one to start our conversations. i started to be the only one to make plans to hang out."
i breathed in deeply as i looked out the window again.
"and if i didn't, i wouldn't hear from you. you would just hang out with your friends."
he stayed quiet as i shook my head slightly again.
"i feel so fucking stupid." i said to myself.
"i just didn't know how to tell you how i was feeling. i didn't want you to be mad i just-" he confessed.
"that's such bullshit. you know damn well, ethan that i wouldn't have been mad at you for telling me how you feel."
"that's what comes with having a relationship. communication. you tell eachother your feelings. what makes you happy and what makes you sad. i'd rather you tell me that you don't love me anymore than just ignore me."
i choked up as i began to feel a lump in my throat begin to form.
i couldn't help but cry as he didn't say anything.
i loved him so much and it killed to know that he no longer felt the same.
i prioritized him over so many things, which only now seemed to screw me over in the end.
i truly believed that we had something strong.
as the car was uncomfortably quiet, i began to think back to the memories that we had made.
our very first date
"ethan come here!" i laughed, signaling for him to make his way over to me.
"dare me to do a cartwheel" i said, as i giggled.
"oh my god do it. if you do it i will."
i looked around and did a cartwheel, but it resulted in me falling into the sturdy book shelf.
my face turned beet red as he laughed and helped me up.
"that's embarassing. Barnes & Noble should make their isles wider"
he continued to laugh as he shrugged his shoulders.
"who cares. my turn!" he quickly went into a cartwheel, except he didn't fall down.
"wow we got a pro over here!" i announced.
visits to random thrift stores
"should i buy them?" he asked, holding them up.
i looked at the pair of slippers he had in his hand. they were silly pink bunny slippers that looked way too big for him.
"oh my god please do it" i said, clapping as i laughed.
he grinned as we made our way up to the check-out counter.
i couldn't help but laugh as they woman rang up his items.
he then payed and we then walked out of the what seemed abandoned thrift store.
"race you back to the car" he said, as he darted towards it.
all of the random and spontaneous things that we did together, i'd miss the most.
but i needed to realize that i wasn't going to force him to feel something that he didn't feel. it wasn't fair.
i needed to come to grips with the fact that he had fallen out of love.
sorry if this made you sad but i felt the need to take my personal experiences with a certain someone and put them into writing.
like 99% of the stuff i put in here is real.
next imagine will be better i promise. ❤
