"Oh, shes with her boyfriend. Kai" lisa mumbles as she looked at kai who was already looking at her and smiled, lisa then responded with a smile. They both knew each other because of jennie.
"That should be me"
"I cannot imagine that you have managed to reclaim or reshape these memories with someone else, or that you have managed to erase me from your past."
~FLASHBACK~
"Lisa lets go grab some street foods. Im craving" jisoo pouted
"Okay. Hmm, unnie where is jennie?" Lisa asked as she looks around jisoo's apartment.
"She was just here earlier right?" Lisa added. She had fallen asleep so she didnt saw jennie left
"Oh, his boyfriend pick her up" jisoo said that made lisa feel a sharp pain in her heart
They went on to the market for some street foods. Of all places, lisa thought to herself. She saw jennie and kai happily feeding each other.
"Fucking coincedence? Really?" lisa mumbles herself as she looked away at the couple
"Lalisa, look its jennie!" Jisoo said and waved at the couple then waved back as they noticed her
"So?" Lisa rolled her eyes and made jisoo confused
The two couples later aproached them to said goodbye as they were done eating
"Were going now unnie. Bye lisa. See you at school tomorrow" jennie smiled
"Okay jendukie" jisoo smiled and so is lisa
~END OF FLASHBACK~
As I avert my eyes to the man. The man that jennie choose to be with. The hurtful words came crashing back at me as I remember every bit of it
~FLASHBACK~
Its been almost five months that our relationship is on the edge of the cliff and one small step it will go down anytime or did it already? maybe i just wasn't just able to noticed it because I was fucking depressed.
"I don't want you anymore. Please go. Live your life without me" she madly said
"Jennie please. Tell me what I did wrong. Ill change it. Please comeback to me" i begged again. Since i noticed where not okay. I started begging from then on, for fucking 5 months never thought in my entire existence that ill be begging.
"Look at you. Your not taking care of yourself anymore. I can see in your eyes that you doesn't have enough sleep" she said and pointed at me
"Cant you see my eyes are fucking sad?" I said and looked at her
"Is that the reason why? I said softly
"Tell me why? Why did you change all? I added
"Cause I dont want you anymore. I dont love you! Isnt that enough reason for you to stay away from me? Why cant you understand? I told you already" jennie was frustrated
"Did you do it? With him?" I nervously ask. Jennie knew what im talking about since this is my biggest fear. If she had done it, it means were over
"Yes. And you know what it doesnt matter. I dont owe you anything now. I told you already before it happened" jennie said and broke my heart I started crying when those words came out
"When?" I tried to deepen my voice
"What the? Your unbelievable?" Jennie sarcastically smile
"Fucking answer me! When!" I said and looked at her as a tear left my eye
"After my birthday" she said
"The hell?" I was shocked. I was at her birthday that day. I even helped her with all the cooking and decorations. She was already being cold to me but shrugged it off. That makes me cry harder.
"You should go home now. Thank you for everything. Im sorry" jennie said
I didnt say a word even if she told me leave. Its been an hour i was just crying. She handed me a glass of water.
"You know i cant do that" i said with a hoarse voice
"Youre hurting already lisa. Why dont you just go away and do anything what you want like me. We are done already. Move on" jennie said
"Call me stubborn, but I cant. I cant do it" i said and shook my head
"I know. But cant you see? I dont care about you anymore" she said in a calm tone
"Pushed me away a million times, i will still keep coming back to you. You know how much I love you jennie" i said and started cring again.
"Even if you told me what you did with him. It hurts a lot really, but I love you jennie. I accept that. Just dont leave me" I fucking begged again
"Try to love me please again. I will forget about what happened to the both of you. Please be mine again. I cant love anyone else but you jennie, only you. Please" I said while sobbing and crying hard begging her
"No lisa, i love him" she said that made my heart stop. My heart just died right there. I knew in that moment. I totally lost her. As I looked at those eyes. I can tell.
That hurt me so much. That night she made me realize my worth, that i am not worth even just a cent for her. My ego my pride and confidence were all broken now but what is unfair is I can still feel my love for her.
"I hope that I can lose the surety of how I felt about you, or at least lose the idea of what I thought I was to you, or even worse, who I thought you were to me. But fuck! This is the most difficult thing for me to do"
~END OF FLASHBACK~
"I really wanted you to know or remember rather, that you walked away from someone whose heart skipped a beat when she saw you, who relished just being with you, even doing nothing at all, who happily sat with most of your bad habits without much complaint, who, quite frankly, would have done anything for you.
"Why did you do this to me jennie"
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