Lisa noticed kai tap jennies hand who was busy looking at her phone. Lisa then slowly looked away as she saw what kai did. She hopes that kai wont notice it.
"What the hell kai."
"I think Im not yet ready to see her"
"Its been.. 9 months since I last saw her"
~FLASHBACK~
LISA POV
We are now sitting at our favorite park to talk. Its been 5 months that our relationship is on the rocks. It started when I notice she doesnt reply to my messages, doesnt return my calls and she didnt even care to visit me at my apartment as she always do.
So I keep on asking what the problem, she then told me that she dont want me anymore that she dont love me and asking me to set her free. She love him more than me. She told me with conviction that she had made her decision already, I remember those eyes as she looks straight to me, shes not lying. But I was stubborn, I didnt listen, I didnt gave her up I love her so much that letting go would be the hardest thing I would do. So, I did everything, i visit her house everyday, cook for her, I even helped her with her birthday which was a very tiring day for me and also I was jealous as i saw the man that she chooses to be with. I asked her everyday to change her decision knowing that I already knew that she already made up her mind, but I was still hoping that maybe, just maybe, I still hold a place in her heart to give me a chance -us a chance, but I was wrong. She pushed me away, everyday she told me that she doesnt wanna see me again, asking me to stop everything that im doing for her, she doesnt like what im doing. Thats when i realized that she doesnt appreciate all of that, and Ive been fucking my life crying for nothing for 5 months already. Even if she told me already about what happened to them i fucking still hoped that she would change her mind. Not knowing that everything I do will not and will never make her change her mind. Thats when I knew I lost her.
But here we are. I asked her to see me I waited for 8hrs straight at that park just to see her. I felt weak, tired and hungry having no appetite because I was fucking sad.
"You changed a lot jennie" I said and looked down
"We both did" jennie said
"No, its you jen. Why?" I asked
"Here we go again lisa?! I cant do this anymore! Youve been asking a lot from me! I told you already right? What part did you didnt understand huh!? I made everything clear!" jennie said she was mad
"Sorry. Please be with me" i said crying
"You are smart lisa, and thats one of the things I admire you for. Even we go out get drunk and wasted you still manage to go to class and even top our exams. Now, I didnt know why you cant understand what Im saying. I dont owe you anymore explaination lisa I made my decision already." jennie said
"Thank you for everything" jennie added and as for me I was just crying hard beside her
"I want to go home now. His waiting" jennie said and broke my heart
"That should have been me." I said sadly as i wipe my tears
"Can you stay please just for a bit" i begged again. I never thought ill do this in my lifetime.
"No. His looking for me already" jennie plainly said as she looked at her phone and I saw their picture on her lockscreen
"Sigh" and I felt a tear left my eye again.
"I will meet you up next week I will return the money I owe you" jennie lastly
"You dont have to return that money, I did that because you needed my help. Seeing you would be fine for me. Can I see you next week?" I asked and she furrowed her eyebrows just by looking at her eyes I can tell she doesnt agree.
"I dont know. Ill try" jennie said and stood up. She just looked at me with a "I cant believe this girl" face
"Im going now" jennie added. She doesnt show any remorse of my feelings. Our conversation was more of her getting angry at me. She doesnt even cry or comfort me.
"I guess i cant stop you now. Ill get a cab for you" i stood up and wipe my tears as we went to look for a cab
"Bye" jennie said
"Bye" I sadly smiled and kiss her cheeks
Little did I know that was the last time I will see her
~END OF FLASHBACK~
"I was happy back then jennie. Before you came I was happy with my life even if I am not with someone i was happy and contented just travelling, making more friends, hook ups, flirting at the bar, getting drunk, wasted, my life was a party. I sometimes felt lonely because everytime im alone at my apartment I had no special someone to talk to but it doenst bother me at all. When loneliness strikes I always have a back up plan so I wouldnt feel that. And then you came. You made me feel loved, you cared, you teach me how to love, that i deserve to be loved and treated the way you did. You surprised me with my favorite foods and preparing food for me when we are at the hospital on our duty which was so sweet knowing that time was very demanding that it takes lot of effort to do it, brought me to expensive restaurants knowing that it wasnt my thing, buy me branded clothes which was a big no for me as I love saving money, surprised me with teddy bear and flowers at school which was my dream but I never told you that it just came naturally to you that made my heart skip a beat, you cared for me, you wanted me to be happy and you did that with all yor heart. Now I cant even stand a second without you in my life.
"Why did you hurt me this bad? What have i done wrong to you to deserve this kind of pain"
"Why jennie?"
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