Ding

.05

We were back in our dance studio running through our set-list for the Kpop concert in Guam. We were gonna be flying out to Guam in a couple of days but before that our staff wanted to make sure we run through everything to see if there was any last minute changes. The day of the concert is the same time as the Melon Music Awards and we were not attending instead our company decided to have us attend the concert in Guam.

When we were first told that we will be in Guam instead of MMA, I admit I was thrilled because I've always wanted to go to Guam and plus I can avoid him longer but as time went by I realized I wanted to see him more and attending MMA would've been my next chance. I guess I was just going to have to deal with not seeing him this time and hope to see him at MAMA.

I was taking a seat on the couch resting while on my phone when Chaeyoung came rushing towards me. "Doesn't it suck that we aren't going to Melon this year, especially since your boo thang is going to be there and his ex is going to be there too" I gave Chaeyoung an annoyed look. "What?" she asked. "Do you like trying to make me jealous or something?" I asked. "What? You, Chou Tzuyu jealous?" she sarcastically asked. I just got up and walked outside the room as the door was closing I heard her yell out "I'm just playing".

I knew Chaeyoung was playing but I'm still very insecure about my feelings and keep doubting I have a chance when he has someone else who wants him back. I made my way to one of my favorite spots in our new building, the stairs leading to the roof. No one is allowed up the roof without clearance from security. Park PD-nim did not want the roof to be accessible to anyone as he feared that some will use it as a permanent escape from reality, only ones allowed is himself, security and those that need to do maintenance as long as they get security clearance. Which is why the stairs leading to it is one of my favorite spots because rarely anyone goes there.

I made it to the top and just sat there allowing myself to think. Wasn't long I was there before I heard huffing and puffing. I look down the stairs to see Nayeon unnie climbing up while losing her breath. She finally reached me and sat down exhausted from all the stairs. "Gosh, if your going to leave at least take your phone with you" It was then that I realized I didn't bring my phone with me.

"Minahae unnie"

"Why are you sitting up here anyways? Who made you mad this time?" Nayeon spoke while trying to calm her breathing.

"No one made me mad"

"Are you sure? You usually come up here when your upset so you come up here to think."

"No. I just needed to think and try to clear my head"

"About??"

"Life. Stuff...i don't know just stuff."

"Does the stuff involve a certain maknae who is part of the biggest boyband in the world?" I just sat there silent not wanting to give in. "I'll take the silence as a yes. What about Jungkook that got you bothered?"

"I don't know...it's just weird"

"weird? How so?" She asked as she turned to look at me. "Are you weird out that he likes you? And you can't admit that you like him back?" I just shook my head while looking down. "What's so weird about that? He is a young very attractive man who likes our beautiful inside and out maknae Tzuyu. What's so weird about that?"

"I'm weird"

"You're not weird."

"I am unnie. I am weird." I finally admitted my frustration. "Everyone always says I'm beautiful, that I'm perfect but that's far from the truth. I am far from being perfect. I have flaws. I have issues. I'm imperfect. So why is it that this guy whom is known as the golden maknae because he is just great at everything likes someone like me?" I said as I started to tear up. I felt Nayeon grab my face to lift it up. "Oh my poor baby, is this what's bothering you lately?" She asked as she wiped my tears. I shook my head as I allowed her to comfort me. "Oh sweetie, we all have flaws. I'm sure Jungkook has flaws as well. None of us are perfect, not even me and you know that means something since I do think highly of myself but I too have flaws. I too have issues. We all do. It's normal."