I can't help it..

No more pretending

-Frank POV-
Arriving at the venue, I head straight down the first corridor and into the green room.
There I find Ray, on the couch stringing his new Gibson thunder bird in pearl white, he looks up and smiles at me. "Beautiful isn't she?" I stare at the shimmering white and gold reflecting from the lights "yeah, you deserve this so much Ray" I smile warmly I mean, I was jealous before but Ray really earn't this sponsorship, he has been a Gibson whore for years.

The green room door opens and in walks Mikey gracing us with his presence, "hey guys, I haven't seen you in so long, I missed you" we all chuckle softly, reflecting on the weeks upon weeks we had just spent together. 
"Where is Gerard?" I hear my own voice say, I didn't even articulate these thoughts so they must've come from my heart. "Oh he is nearly here..shouldn't be too long" I smile weakly at Mikey and he notices.. "is everything okay Frank?" because it's Mikey I feel obliged to answer because he has an adorably concerned look painted across his face. 
"No, yeah i am fine just tired" this seemed to satisfy the taller man as everyone was exhausted
"I am going to start blowing air into this unicorn, wanna set it up at sound check" 

"Hey", my eyes shoot toward the door and there stood Gerard, red hair still damp from the shower, ugg boots cradling his feet, track pants hugging his legs and torso and his favourite loose singlet exposing the sides of his perfect body. I immediately blush. "H..hey, Gee" I stutter,
Ray could feel the tension building in the air his eyes darting back and forward between the two men, "I..uh, am gonna go try this new bad boy out" Ray stood from the couch and took his new baby to the stage for sound check.

"Where is Mikey?" Gerard spoke deeply his eyes piercing straight into mine, "he went to blow up his new unicorn at sound check, w...where is L.." my words were cut off by a frantic Gerard pacing toward me and grabbing the back of my neck..crashing our lips together with so much passion. Closing my eyes tightly I melted into his touch and moaned softly, his kisses were filled with such love and need, as we part I let out a breathy sigh.
 Looking into each others wanting eyes, I smirk "what was that for?" he smirks back to me "I missed you.." Our moment was swiftly interrupted by the door handle moving, Gerard quickly placed one last kiss on my lips before parting from my embrace.
"Are you two ready for sound check?" Ray looking with concerned eyes darting between us again, both with red faces and slightly guilty looks written on our faces.
"Yes, lets go Frankie".

-Gerard POV-
"CHECK CHECK CHECK, LA LA LA, FA LA BLAH YAAAH, okay this mic is working shall we run through vampire money?" Looking around at my band, Mikey standing there with a stupid grin on his face, a giant floated unicorn leered behind his bass amp, I roll my eyes.
Ray was standing there with his new guitar, looking like he just found the love of his life. My eyes scan to Frank who is tuning his guitar and still appears to be blushing, it makes me giggle and turn a rosy hue myself. Michael holding up two thumbs and ready to go, I am still adjusting to or new drummer after Bob left.. He seems alright.
Michael clapped the sticks together four times before hitting the skins to cue my words.

After soundcheck we huddled in a big circle back stage, it was usually up to me to start the pep talk, to hype up the band and to get them to play their hearts out. "Okay guys, remember why we do this! we are My fucking Chemical Romance and we are playing our home turf! get fucking wild a leave your troubles right here right now, MCR on three!" I scream, "ONE, TWO ,THREE", "MCR!!" the whole band yells "ONE, TWO, THREE!!" I shut my eyes and yell again "MCR!!" more passion was in their exclamation "ONE FUCKING MORE! ONE, TWO , THREE!" my eyes scan the circle, ever one is hyped as fuck, "MCR!!!!!" 

Nearing the end of the set, the next song is "you know what they do to guys like us in prison" 
I glance over at Frank who is thinking the same thing as me, but then a rush of cold shoots to my spine as I look side stage and see Lindsey standing there with a stupid grin on her face.. 
It's now or never Gerard, you can't pretend anymore. 
The song starts up and I start to sing. "In the middle of a gun fight, In the center of a restaurant" my soul is shaking, I have never been more nervous to kiss Frank in my whole life. The only people it will shock will be Frank and Lindsey, it's a normal show otherwise. 
More words fall from my lips like clock work, it's nearing the part of the song, I shut my eyes and breathe away from the mic as I make my way over to Frank who looks shocked but then cracks the most adorable smile, it melts my heart.. I am making the best decision... right?
Looking deeply into Franks breathtaking eyes I sing the words right to his face, sharing the mic with him for the last part of the lyric.
"Pain in my heart for your dying wish, I'll kiss your lips again-aga-hayeaheyeahhn"  
and that's when it happened, the mic fell with my hand to my side and I brushed my hand through Franks sweaty mop of hair, scrunching it at the back and drawing his face into mine.

In that moment, it was just us. Our lips touching with such need and slimy, hot, ecstasy.
Frank had stopped playing he lost the ability to musician and also grabbed Gerard by the neck, this kiss lasted longer than all of the previous kisses combined and before we knew it the song had finished and the crowd was losing it, Mikey and Ray stood there shocked as the kiss usually only lasted a few seconds.
When I broke away from Frank who was adorably red in the face smiling uncontrollably, I looked to the crowd who were screaming and cheering with love heart shaped hands, Ray who had a raised eyebrow and Mikey whose jaw needed to be collected from the ground.. lastly side stage, Lindsey stood there tears streaming down her face and black eyeliner that streaked her snow white cheeks, she ran away and I chased after her, it was encore time anyway, we had a two minutes to torture the fans with.

"Lindsey wait!" I yelled as she disappeared into the green room. "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT GERARD" so much hurt in her voice the damage had been done. "Lindsey, I am sorry.. I just" 
"no! don't lie to me! you've been acting weird ever since you came home this afternoon, rejecting intimacy with me? to what! kiss your best friend on stage?" her face was painted with desperation for answers.. 
"ONE MINUTE MR WAY", fuck, I didn't think it would happen like this.. "YES! okay you're right Lindsey, I don't love you anymore, I don't love you like I did." I feel a lump starting to form in my throat. "I... can't pretend anymore, I...I am in love with Frank!" and with that I ran out of the room not wanting to see her reaction, I knew it was over for us and I knew I would have to deal with it when we got home but for now, my heart felt free my shoulders were light. I started laughing hysterically.

I ran to my band mates, "ready you mother fuckers?" this seemed to change the mood instantly.
"FUCK YEAH!" they all yelled in unison.
Running back onto the stage the lights beamed onto us and I threw my arms into the air! thousands of people screamed it was a beautiful sound, the drums started the beat and I danced around the stage skipping over to Ray "Well are you ready Ray?" I winked "yeah" 
twirling over to Frank and sliding my hand down his chest "how bout you Frank?" he bit his lip "all night baby" I blushed, like a teenage girl and jogged over to Mikey who I shared the mic with "How bout you Moikeyyy?" he cracked a smile at my performance "fuckin' ready".
The song was so high energy, and full of so much stage presence I felt on top of the world when it finished. We all made a line along the front of the stage and took a bow, then throwing guitar pics, drum sticks and sweaty towels into the sea of screams. 

When we walked back into the green room, Lindsey was gone and the door shut behind us. 
"By that stage kiss tonight I am guessing you told Lindsey tonight?" Ray spoke with confidence. 
I just smiled and took Franks hand in mine, "I couldn't be happier" Frank blushed and smiled at his shoes. There was a warm feeling in the green room, acceptance, love and understanding. 
We all hugged each other tightly, knowing our lives had all changed in a positive way for this home show and we couldn't of felt more wholesome.