Poetries

12:12 A.M.

Six years ago,

I loved someone so deeply.

I did everything to make him love me,

Prioritized him, comforted him, entertained him.

But that was a stupid move as I was hurt as deeply.

On a sunny fine day in March,

He told me that he love my best friend.

He talked about her like she puts stars in the sky - just like how I talked about you.

I felt all kinds of emotions within me,

Confusion, anger, sadness.

Since then,

I knew that I could be nothing more than a friend.

But I could not help myself from hoping that perhaps one day, I could be more.

I fooled myself into believing that this will happen.

Maybe in a month, a year, or a couple of years.

Today,

You have started loving 3 other girls after my best friend.

But it was never my turn.

A huge part of me has been telling me that enough is enough.

I have tried hard enough, I waited long enough, I am broken enough.

August 18, 2019

It has been six long years since I started loving you.

It has been four long years since I chose to wait for you.

It has been 24 hours since I battled myself to stop loving you.

12:12 A.M., I have finally decided that this is the end.

Thank you, goodbye, be well.