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Anna's Utopian Dream

A/N- For those few who may not know, a Utopian dream is a dream which is really unlikely to happen and something you hope for in the future. (an implausible dream) like saying i want to live in Narnia with a pet dragon

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All i every wanted was a simple life. All i want is to be able to go home and sit down, without worrying about anything. To sit in my library and re-read all my favourite book, just because i can. i want to smile and laugh, like actually laugh... not some pathetic chuckle to amuse someone.. to laugh where my stomach will hurt and ill tear up and cant stop laughing.. that kind of laugh.

ill dream of a place, a really pretty place. Its quiet, all you can hear is the rustling of the leaves from the wind and scattering of foxes. The ground is coated in an almost perfect layer of snow, and more snow is gently falling. A snowflake would land on my nose and i would look up to the sky to see the towering beauty of a mountain. My house is surrounded by a forest, all freshly scented, and you can see the colourful winter flowers peeking from beneath the snow. I look towards my doorway to see my giant bearded dragon sitting there watching me. Browsing to his collar i can see that her name is Izzy. She walks towards me leaving clear footprints to be swept away by her tail. I walk into the house and see a huge hallway with the grand red carpetted staircase. To my right i can see a long, modern kitchen-diner with pictures of me and Izzy on the wall. Its just us. no more people. no pointless bitching or moaning. just me and Izzy, and I'm happy. I walk back into the hallway and across to the big wooden door at the back of the staircase. the door makes a loud creek when i open it. Inside the room sits thousands of books upon 8 foot high bookshelves. The whole wall is a giant bookcase. majestic. As i turn round i spot a cinematic screen and a huge array of DVDs of my favourite films. On top of a table i can see 2 controllers. i press the on button on the first remote, turning on the TV. i turn it off again. i grab the second remote and press the on button.. nothing happens.. i put the remote back on the table and a cold breeze whistles towards me, i whisk around to see a section of my bookshelf ajar. How Hollywood, a secret room. I walk in and the lights automatically turn on. its a long corridor, fully furbished. A row of towers stand along the pathway, on top of each tower sits a head. A head of each person i seem to hate. i get to the end of the path and gasp at the sight in front of me. i read the plague below the head i stared at. It read, "It had to be done. She was ready to ruin her life. She didn't trust his actions and yet she still thought he wouldn't do anything. Then she believed him over me. That's why Anita sits in this space, young and beautiful forever. Never to leave my heart or my presence. remember best friends forever." I'm left stood staring and the blank expression on Anita's face. cold and dead. Unable to wake myself up. I could scream but with no one around it would be pointless.

I have the dream often. Ever since Anita told me what happened a last month. There is nothing i could do about the situation. I guess the beginning of the dream is to make me feel better, but the end? it doesn't make sense, i don't hate Anita, and the room was filled with people i hated. I don't understand. Is it a sign? am i losing her as a friend and the only to keep her close was to kill her? I cant comprehend it, i cant lose her. i want her here but i don't want her dead. id rather she left then she died.. or do i?...