Unwillingly Separated (Liam Payne)

Chapter 43 (what do you want to know?)

Hey Gabriella." He said simply. I didn't know what to do or say. I still wasn't sure how to react to them telling social service that me and Carter didn't have anyone.

I actually haven't thought about them one bit since then but I haven't really had emotions toward them. All I know is that this is actually their fault. Yes it seems like I'm blaming everyone but myself, but believe me I'm not. I blame myself everyday for Carter death and that will never change.

To be honest I didn't even know if I was exactly mad at Hannah and Charlie. I didn't know if I was just upset that he was gone or upset with myself so I blame them. But I was mad at them for not coming back and checking on us they didn't even pay a visit to us, and that what makes me mad.

Now to be honest, I wasn't exactly mad at James either, I was more frustrated and mad at his dad for calling on us, he even helps me out and I thought he was on our side. But then that change pretty much.

"What are you doing here?"

"Well I was close with Carter too." He half chuckles but I didn't join in. "I'm sorry about your lost." He said clearing his throat looking down at the ground every once in awhile.

"Me too." I watched as he bite his bottom lip nervously and I raised and eyebrow giving him the 'anything else look' I would give him when we were younger. I watch as his eyes trail off to Liam and the others around me. "Oh and this is Harry, Zayn, Niall, Kelly and Eleanor, and this is Liam, my boyfriend." I said. I didn’t know where Louis and Johannah walked off to.

"Hi nice to meet you" Liam said reaching out to offer his hand to James and James accepted it by shaking it and James reaches out to shake everyone else hand giving them a slight smile.

Liam was always so sweet, he was caring, funny and just hard not to like even though I didn't like him the first time we met, I kind of thought he was annoying. But his meaning behind it was just trying to be friends and he actually truly did, well do care about me and now here we are. Together and Liam I feel has help me through the most.

"We have to go." I said. "and tell your parents thank for 'caring' enough to come to explain themselves and paying respect to Carter." I said.

"Gabby. They wanted-"

"What's stopping them? I don't care if I was mad, you came!" I said now annoyed. "And the thing is I thought I could really count on you guys." I stop. "But thanks for coming it did mean a lot." I said turning around.

"Gabby." James spoke. "I have something to tell you and I don't know how you're going to react-" 

"I don't want to know." I put my hand up. "Whatever it is keep it a secret I don't want to know." I kept walking.

"Your mum wants to meet you." I stop dead in my track and turn to him. 

"What? No. She's dead." I said. 

"No. She's not." He said digging in his pocket getting out a what looks to be a letter and handed it to me. 

I reach for it and ran my hand slowly across the letter that had her name written on it. I open it pulling out the letter biting my bottom lip.

     Dear Gabriella,

I know you have a lot of question that you have and want to be answer and I will try and answer as many questions as possible. Meet me at Frankie and Benny’s at 3:00pm.”

How could my mum want to meet me when she’s supposed to be dead? How could she now be alive?  Austin, the one I once thought was my father said he was going to kill her. Well maybe he never got the chance to because he got arrested. Well that makes more sense. I thought to myself.

“If you need a ride-“ James started.

“I’ll take her.” Liam said wrapping an arm around my shoulder. I looked up at him giving him a slight smile but to be honest, I’m not even sure if I wanted to meet her.

“Okay, well I should get going.” He said. “If you need anything just know you can always call me you are my friend still.”

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I kept reading over the letter my mum wrote me, I didn’t know if I wanted to meet her or not. After learning about who she is how she is and what she does my whole view changed about her and I don’t know how I would feel about her and if I still would see her as the same person.

Growing up I loved my dad and mum. Even though my dad was barely in my life but I thought he always had a good reason, boy was I wrong. Then I had my mum who was a drunk and brought different guys home everyday and I would be the one left to take care of Carter because I knew she still loved us, well I thought.

 It was now 2:45pm and Liam and I were just heading to Frankie and benny’s. I told Johannah what was happening she act like she was okay with it but I can tell she was not. She just told me if I didn’t want to go I didn’t have to that it was up to me and she will support me and that if I needed anything just call her.

“You sure you want to do this?” Liam asked and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to do it but I just nodded.

“I just want somewhat of closer then I’m done with her.” I said. “I was wondering if you would come in with me.” I said looking over at him and he reaches his hand to my hand giving it a tight squeeze and nods.

“Of course I will.” He smiles and I smile back.

I was drowning in my thoughts to realize that we were already here. I took a deep breath in and let it out getting out the car. Liam reaches for my hand and rubs my knuckles gently with his thumb and kisses my head.

Having him here I think I can relax a little more but I think I was more nerves of how she would act since I found out her history. I never really seen her in her ‘crazy’ stage I guess. But at times I remember she would yell at me for dumb reasons or when Carter was little she would play a little to rough with him when he was only just 1 year old.

We walked in the restaurant and I looked around to see if I could spot her, if I could remember how she looked. I looked on the side seeing a familiar face who gave me a slight wave.

“That’s her,” I told Liam but I think I was also telling myself. I walked to her sliding in the booth Liam sliding right next to me. Sitting here in front of my mother felt like sitting in front of a stranger you just met.

“This is my boyfriend, Liam.” I motion to him. “And this is.. Shelly” I said pointing at her. I didn’t want to say mum because I felt like it didn’t feel right, I feel like I didn’t know her so it would be like calling a stranger my mum. I looked over at her seeing her signing I guess because I called her by her name and not mum.

“Hi, its nice to meet you Liam” she said reaching her hand out and he accepts it shaking it. “I would say Gabriella told me so much about you, but I haven’t seen her” she chuckles and raised an eyebrow. “So do you want anything to eat?” she asked changing the subject from her I guess joke? I could tell she was already finished eating.  

I didn’t really want anything but I looked over at Liam to see if he wanted anything but he shakes his head. “No we are fine.” I just wanted to get to the point. “What do you want?”

“Well what do you want to know and I’ll answer you honestly.”